simply adorable ❤

You can't carry it with you if you want to survive

2012-02-25T15:48:00.002-05:00

For some reason, I've been really wanting to go on vacation. Aaw, who am I kidding? I always want to go on vacation! I'm dreaming of a gorgeously hot place. Like, Egypt. Maybe Hawaii. Definitely Italy! Gawd, I LOVE Italy! Well, I can't really make a judgment because I've never actually been to Italy (sigh) but instead, have always imagined it. I see a lovely hot place, filled with gorgeous smells and people and sights. Because Italian food is always amazing, Italian people are always gorgeous and the whole concept of Italy is always so appealing! At least to ME anyway haha.

A friend of mine and I were seriously considering visiting Verona when summer finally rolls around. Ah, Verona. City of love? Isn't it where Romeo and Juliet was set? I totally love the idea of a disapproved whirlwind romance. It's so...sexy. But I'm very much a hopeless romantic. Heh, just kidding. OK. Maybe not "helpless" as such, but I know I'm definitely one of those girls who fall for guys very fast. Too fast. I swear I'm a hormone-crazed teen! :)

Have you guys ever had a R&-style romance? Is it as adrenaline-releasing as everyone imagines it to be?

All you need is love

2012-02-14T14:44:00.003-05:00

Love is a strange thing. It’s defined as “an intense feeling of deep emotion”. You’d think that a strong, powerful rush of emotion such as this would be immediately identified. On the contrary, I think that love is extremely difficult to identify. I think that we spend too much time looking for love that when it finally shows up, we don’t realize it because we think it should be less obvious. I mean, all that time we spent looking for it…it should at least present itself in a more challenging context, shouldn’t it?

You know when people tell you that "you're too young to love"? I think that's absolute bull. I don't believe that there is an age of when you can love. Love can happen at any time! As long as you have a heart and a soul. As long as you can feel. I think that's sufficient.

Have you ever been in love before? I can't say that I have. I won't lie to you and say that I haven't looked for love. I'll admit that I've occasionally found myself peeking around corners in life, wondering if I'll finally come across this red bundle of passionate...joy. There's nothing wrong with keeping an eye open, right? Sometimes I wonder how love will present itself to me. Will it be a smooth journey? Or a wildly dangerous mission into a hurricane. Either way, it'll be an experience that I'm sure that I'll never forget.

As a wise bunch of people once said, "All you need is love". Really? Hm.

Share your views and experiences of love!

XOXO

But I believe in whatever you do

2012-02-13T18:42:00.003-05:00

It sucks when you let an opportunity pass you by. Food on a platter that you did not eat. It's like, what kind of crazy psycho weirdo person wouldn't take it? Oh wait, me.

Haha okay, so my little food analogy isn't exactly...relevant. What I meant was it's totally crazy how most of us are those people who don't jump because they're scared to fall. They don't think they'll fly. But you don't know that - you might fly. Then again, you might fall so it's a bit of a 50/50 thing. However sometimes in life, we just gotta throw a knife into the dark and see what happens.

I don't recommend doing this all the time, because it's slightly risky and doesn't come without consequences (all with all things in life), but once in a while? Yes. Do it. Go for it!

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Tomorrow is Valentine's Day! Prepare yourself for a day of chocolates and pink and red stuff everywhere. I'll also be uploading a new cover, dedicated to this romantic day and sharing it with you wonderful people so watch out for it!

Until next time (AKA tomorrow),
XOXO

You were the prince

2012-02-07T17:27:00.006-05:00

By the way, I forgot to add that it was Mitsuki's (MitsukiUsagii on Youtube) birthday yesterday! She's 20 now! Yay!

She's the sweetest person I've ever come across. She truly deserves happiness :)

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Some advertising for me now. For Valentine's Day, I'm going to do a special song dedicated to all you lovers out there :) Watch out for it!

xoxo

I miss you, I need you

2012-02-07T16:47:00.002-05:00

Hello! How are you all? Hope you've all been well! Sorry that I've been AWOL lately. I keep going off and not posting anything for ages. Without even saying goodbye! I know! What am I like?! Hehe :)

So it's two months into the new year. Are you all keeping your New Year's resolutions? Ehhh? I bet you're not. I know I'm not haha! Well, I am now. Kind of. One of my resolutions was to stop shopping, especially online shopping. I It's just SO addictive. You'll just be browsing, browsing, browsing, not knowing what you want and then BAM. You'll see something and that's it. You want it. You need it. You can't live without it. That, my dears, is the voice of a shopaholic speaking. You've all heard this voice before. I know I definitely have!

Well, all that I know is that I've stopped now. Eventually. Taken me a full month! But I erm kinda have to? With the contents of my bank account rapidly decreasing and a closet filling up...

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It's Valentine's Day soon. Are you guys EXCITED? Do you have someone special to share this day with? Ah, love. It's a fickle thing (I actually don't know what that means but I read it in a book somewhere and I'm using it, lawl).

Have you ever met someone who's perfect to you in every single way? Like the exact image of perfection? The vision of heaven? The epitome of intelligence, kindness and beauty? It's really rare, I think. You'll usually find someone with one (or some) but not all qualities. But what is perfection exactly? I don't think you can actually define it. Well, there is a dictionary definition but that's not what I'm talking about. I mean illustrating with an example. Beauty really is subjective. There's this bastard on Youtube who decided to randomly stir up an argument with me over beauty. He said my statement that "beauty is subjective" was "ridiculously inaccurate". Well, fuck you. Fuck you, fuck you, fuck YOU (him, not you lovelies reading this). He also backed up his argument very poorly by adding that "the moon looks small to him but an astronaut would think it was very big. Does that mean the size of the moon is subjective?" (or something along the lines of that).

Firstly I would just like to add that the size of the moon has nothing whatsoever to do with beauty and secondly, WHAT THE HELL. Clearly the idiot thought he was being very smart, but no, he just made himself look even dumber. He called me "retarded" and suggested that I needed to "grow up". Like I'm about to take advice from somebody who thinks beauty is related to moon size. Why do people insist on being such dicks to each other? Why can't we all get along in peace and harmony?

I'm going to be above all this and reply back to the dick in a very calm and dignified way. Because obviously bitching about the guy on a blog is an example of "being above all this". Haha! :)

Anyway BACK TO THE TOPIC OF PERFECTION. My point was that I've met someone perfect. So perfect that it's unbelievable. He's just so...amazing. So sweet and kind and calm. I mean, he would never pick a fight with anyone, even if they were provoking him. He's kinda smart too. And he's gorgeous. Not that his looks should matter at all. Heh. I always end up going for the tall, dark haired handsome-in-a-geeky-way guys. We'll call him E. Perfect E.

I hope that you all meet someone as perfect as E is to me. Everybody deserves love, even if they're the dickiest dick-like dick in the whole population of Dickland.

P.S. Sorry for my appalling language. Love you all. God bless xoxo

Happy new year!

2012-01-01T18:10:00.003-05:00

Hey guys! I just wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year. I hope that you've all had an awesome 2011 and that 2012 will bring even more joy and happiness. So in other words, no matter how much 2011 rocked, let's make 2012 rock even harder!!

I just want to thank my family, friends and all the wonderful people I've met in my life so far. You're all so amazing and I'm so glad that you've come into my life, even if, for some, it was only for a short time. You've helped me SO much; cheering me on, picking me up when I've fallen and lending your shoulders when I'm at my lowest. Without you all, I don't know what I would have done. Thank you for helping me shine and become the person I am today :)

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You know when you have those absolutely perfect moments? And what sucks the most is the fact that you chickened out and totally blew off the moment. I know you know EXACTLY what kind of moments I'm talking about. What I want YOU to do this year is to grab those golden moments like grabbing a bull by its horns. I know that it's hard; you're scared, you don't know what's going to happen, but don't you see? That's the whole beauty of life! The not-knowing. We really should catch what life throws us and NOT let those windows of opportunity close because we never know what's around the corner. It could be that thing you've been dreaming about your whole life or it could be your biggest nightmare. Either way, you're gonna learn something at the end of it, and life is all about learning. Thus, at least you know you're going to get something out of it!

Good luck all XX

You're too damn scared to fly

2011-12-22T07:16:00.002-05:00

Hey guys! It's been AGES since my last post, hasn't it? Yes, it really has. I'm sooo sorry about that! I've just been so freakin busy these last few months. I've told you how my ambition is to move to England, right? Well, study there, at least. Right.

So.
You're all probably wonderin why I'm up at 7AM in the morning just to write a freakin blog post. Well, the thing is, I'm not in New York right now and it's almost 12:30PM, not 7:30AM. That's right, I'm in England! Because we're all on vacation, my mom and dad dragged us onto a plane (on Saturday, I think?) to visit our cousins from across the pond. It's not that cold, actually. I'm pretty sure that it would be colder back home. It's also not raining. I repeat, NOT RAINING. I know, I thought it would be raining too. Or at least, snowing. Surprising, isn't it? Actually, a couple of days ago, it did snow a little bit. But then it rained (typical!) and washed the white blanket away. So sad!

And later today (or tonight, more like), I'm going out. To a bar. Heh. No, I'm not going for the keg. My cousin's taking me to see this band. Of boys. Yummy. Haha, they go to her high school and she has like, a crush on the frontman so she's going. And apparently I have to go too, so she can show me how hot he is. We Facebook stalked him and yeah, I wasn't feeling it. Apparently tonight, 'I'm gonna be wrong'. Heh, can't waaaait!

Xx

Speak now or forever hold your peace

2011-10-10T15:10:00.002-04:00

I just had an hour long phone conversation with this girl who used to be one of my best friends. It was really weird. I mean, the phone convo was fine but the fact that I was even talking to her was pretty strange. We haven't talked in over two years. I still think that it's really weird that we're not friends anymore. I guess we became too close too fast. We used to be reeeeally close. Maybe even closer than me and Katy. I knew that Katy didn't like her. Katy still doesn't like her lol. I have a feeling that she was jealous. Katy and I have a weird relationship. We never hug or link arms but we both know that we're best friends, practically like sisters. Like an unspoken law.

Anyways, the point that I'd like to make is to always keep your friends close . No matter how many falling outs you've had, no matter how weird she/he has been lately, please just try to mend things. This girl was one of the greatest friends that a girl could ever wish for, but now I feel like it's too late. It was a great phone call but I can tell that we were both slightly wary and on our guard. I guess the fact that we've both had two whole years to change has only just emphasized the way we've grown apart. It was still nice though :)

Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?

2011-09-01T17:38:00.001-04:00

I am really confused. Don't get it.

Oh, and I think I may just swear off guys forever. Become a nun. Yeah.

I was enchanted to meet you...

2011-08-29T17:01:00.002-04:00

WHOA. It sure has been a long time since I last wrote on here. Sorry about that, guys!

Well, surely you've all heard about Hurricane Irene, right? If you haven't, well basically, it's a hurricane and it has been wrecking and creating havoc all over the east coast. It has recently just practically destroyed New York. Stupid freaking hurricane. Because of its presence, my family and I are currently staying with some cousins in this place near Los Angeles on the west coast. Thanks for taking us in, guys! Ah, love 'em.

Though the hurricane is terrible, there is one good thing that has come out of it. I met a guy!! :D

We all went to this house-warming party at some family friend's house. The hostess was one of my mom and dad's old friends, and I felt totally bad because she was like, "Do you remember me?" to me and I had no idea who she was. BUT ANYWAY. There was nobody my age there, just old people and adults. Until this guy came with his parents. In this white BMW, might I add. Rich folks, I thought. Saw the people come in. A tall glasses-wearing man, a petite woman and their son. Who was tall and slim. Ooh, I thought (I love tall guys, you see). He was wearing a T-shirt, jeans and a blazer. Like, an expensive looking one. Ooh la la, I thought.

Well, it took me forever to actually get talking to him because I had no idea what to actually say. Then my mom introduced me to him (thanks Mom!!) and then we talked and talked...we literally talked for hours. About so many things; just random crap. He is really nice, funny PLUS, he had great hair. Yeah, I could kind of tell that he was a little vain because his hair was all perfectly styled and he was so cool-looking...but HECK I'm willing to overlook all that because I think I've just found my perfect guy!! XD

I wonder what he thinks of me. There were some of his friends there but he didn't go over to talk to them, he stayed and talked to me so that must mean he likes me a little bit, right? Then later, in the evening, his stupid friends came over to talk to him (which I wasn't very happy about but hey, life is unfair sometimes).

OH he's so cute! The way he talks, the way he moves his eyebrows when he talks... (when he was talking to me, he did this thing with his eyebrows; sort of twitches them and frowns in this really cute way, as though he's confused/thinking). I also love the way he towers over me. I am short of his shoulder by a couple of inches XD.

He's 19 :D aaaand...he goes to college in England. In London. Wow. He really must be rich. His name is Zack...

But you know, being the idiot that I am, I don't know my own number and it totally slipped my mind that I could have used my mom's, dad's or brother's phone to get it. So he doesn't have my number, I don't have his...URGH I AM GOING CRAZY HERE!! Luckily, because his family is friends with some of MY family's friends, I haven't lost him completely. Haha.

Sorry for the long post. I had a lot going on in my mind :)

Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you

2011-06-29T18:28:00.002-04:00

Today has been very eventful for me. For starters, Will started talking to me! YAY! But on the negative side, I was so nervous, I barely said anything back. This is bad because you see, when I don't smile, I look like I'm glaring. So he must think I'm a stone-cold evil psychobitch or something haha! Oh well. Also, I think he might think I have a thing going on with Alex because he's seen us two hanging out together alone a lot. What? Can't two friends who feel absolutely nothing for each other chill?

So Will asked me if my hair was naturally straight. I nodded. That was it. LOL. Well, I kept noticing him glancing at me and shit. Eh. Who am I kidding? I don't even like the guy much. He's alright. Good looking stoner. But has an annoying voice haha.

I heard some very interesting rumours about me. Apparently, I am currently dating Rafael. He's one of my new close friends. Never noticed him before but I'm in his Biology class. I thought this so-called little piece of truth was hilarious because I am so NOT dating Rafael. We're just friends. But it's so funny.

Oh! I'm going to London as part of a school trip in mid-July! Only for like, 3 days though. Hope the weather is nice!!

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?

2011-06-12T16:50:00.002-04:00

I love how Taylor Swift's songs are so easy to relate to. And how they are so realistic! Many songs nowadays are all about love, sex and drugs, but Taylor's are so cute and innocent. Very teenager-like. She is totally my all-time celebrity idol.

It's funny how I freeze up and get all shy around Will. People say that I am really bubbly and perky. It's because he's so beautiful and perfect. I just wish his personality was as perfect. I've been told that he's really funny but his sarcasm can often come across as rude and insensitive. And that although he's good-looking, he would make a really bad boyfriend. It's such a shame; to let all that beauty go to waste. Only thing is, as gorgeous as he is, I personally don't think we'd go together very well because he's insensitive and sarcastic, whilst I am demanding and very sensitive. But we're both really impatient and cynical. So...actually, I don't know HAHA.

I did something rebellious a few days ago. I smoked. o_O!! Lol, actually it's not even that bad. Or rebellious. Though my parents would kill me if they found out.

It doesn't taste that bad, actually. The reason why I'm so surprised is because I hate the smell of it. It always gives me a headache and nausea. It pretty much tastes like how it smells but in your mouth, it's not so bad. Kind of hot but in a nice way (personally).

Also, I think my singing voice has deepened LOL. Like, gone huskier or something. It could because of that cold I got about a week or so ago. I recovered a couple of days ago and that horrible cough has majorly cleared up but it's lingering. I wonder if it was the presence of the cough that made my voice break!!
XD

Love me, hate me

2011-06-02T17:19:00.002-04:00

I watched Prince of Persia and Donnie Darko last night, and I can safely admit that I have fallen in love with Jake Gyllenhaal. Like, completely. Of course I knew who he was (like, who doesn't?!) but I'd never found him that attractive. Until I watched Prince of Persia and Gyllenhaal talking in that delicious English accent was just...oh my GOD. So then I watched Donnie Darko (have watched this before, and previously thought he was just a weird character) and realized what a cutie he was 10 years ago! If he was my age and went to my high school, Christ, that boy would never be short of a date to the prom or whatever.

Now, is it just me or does Jake Gyllenhaal look slightly stoned sometimes? Or...all the time. Eh, it's probably just me. But yeah, the point is, I think he has a natural stoner face. And because of recent events (the beautiful Will), I've suddenly developed a taste for stoner boys.

By the way, have I mentioned that I've purchased my very first pair of circle lenses? They arrived like, 2 days ago. Jeez, I had a hard time concealing them from my mom. My dad doesn't give a shit but my mom...GOD that woman has the eyes of a hawk, I swear! When it arrived in the mail, I ripped a huge bright orange sticker from the back of the package (small, thank goodness) that said in big black letters, CIRCLE LENSES. Then I raced upstairs to hide it in my wardrobe. I was slughtly surprised bug greatly relieved that my mom didn't ask me what the package was, but the following day, sure enough, I heard those dreaded words, "So what was in the package?"

Gulp.

I said jewelry so smoothly that even I couldn't tell that I was lying! Wow, I am getting good. Not that it's anything I'm actually proud of. Lying is BAD, ya hear me?!

Anyways, maybe I'll post some photos later.

You can stand under my umbrella~

2011-06-01T11:37:00.002-04:00

I want a lot of things but do you know what I really want? I want a wool coat with a furry hood. I know that it's summer and winter's a long way away but I've just always wanted a coat with a fur lined hood!! My mom's going to kill me because I've found the perfect one and I'm planning on buying it next weekend with her credit card. She's gonna freak because if I stop and think, I actually do already have numerous coats and besides, it's summer! But I really want it...!

I'm ill. It sucks because I've lost my voice. Hopefully my throat should heal and I'll be better by next week because I'm planning on recording some lines then. Bleurgh!

One thing I really hate is prejudice. And stereotypes and racism. Okay, that's 3 things but whatever. I saw some things on the internet - stuff like, "Why do Chinese people have small eyes and flat faces". By Chinese, they mean Asian people. That's really stereotypical and narrow-minded! Ignorant bastards. Sorry. Not ALL Asians have small eyes and "flat faces". Like, what does "small" really mean anyway? Limited in size? One person might think an object is small whilst another would disagree and say that it is big.

I'm really pissed off today for some reason. I think it's almost that time of the month...!

Gee - IU (ver) lyrics

2011-05-24T18:14:00.003-04:00

I love IU's version of this song. So I pieced together the lyrics that she sang. It was...hard (for me, anyway) because I wasn't sure what she was saying.

Neomuneomu meotjyeo nuni nuni busyeo
Cheotnune banhaesseo tteollineun geol
Gee gee gee baby baby
Gee gee gee baby baby

Oh neomu bukkeureowo chyeodabol su eobseo
Sumeul mot swigesseo sujubeun geol
Gee gee gee baby baby
Gee gee gee baby baby

Eotteoke hajyo
Tteollineun naneun
Molla molla molla
Molla mollahamyeo maeil geudaeman geurijyo

Chinhan chingudeureun malhajyo
Jeongmal neoneun jeongmal motmallyeo
babo geuraeyo geudael boneun nan

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjaritjjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Translation:

You're so so handsome
My eyes my eyes are blinded
I was captured from first glance, I'm trembling
(Gee gee gee baby baby)
(Gee gee gee baby baby)

Oh I feel so embarrassed
I can't look at you
I can't breathe because I feel shy
(Gee gee gee baby baby)
(Gee gee gee baby baby)

What should I do?
About my trembling heart
Don't know, don't know, don't know
I don't know why but every day I long for only you

My close friends tell me
That I'm really a helpless fool
Yes as I look at you

So bright so bright My eyes are blinded no no no
So surprised surprised I'm shocked oh oh oh
So exciting exciting, my body is trembling gee gee gee gee gee
Oh glittering eyes (oh yeah) Oh sweet aroma (oh yeah yeah yeah)

LOL VERY inaccurate translation. I apologize because I can't speak a word of Korean, nor am I Korean. All I did was piece together the English teanslation of Gee in line to what IU was singing :)

Gosh I love this song!

You've got your way of speaking

2011-05-21T04:26:00.004-04:00

If you're wondering what the hell I'm doing up so early in the morning, it's because I just randomly woke up and now I can't get back to sleep. Really annoying! So I thought I might just write a little something here :)

I was just reading some websites about 'double eyelids' and the 'double eyelid surgery'. The surgery itself sounds really painful and post-surgery sounds...uncomfortable. Your lids will be sore for a few weeks (this is as expected) and discolored for MONTHS?! What if you end up going blind or something?? You know, it's at times like these that I'm super glad I have double lids. Sure mine aren't exactly how I want them. I've frequently considered surgery in the past but after reading this...NO MORE NO WAY! I just...can't.

I was talking to Will the other day. Hehe. We had a history test and we were just going through facts. However, Alex was there and I seriously love the dude, but I kind of wanted him to GTFO. Haha, no that's cruel. It was more like, 'Please leave'.

But then something happened! I turned to say something to Alex when I noticed Will looking at me so I looked at him. It must have looked really weird to Alex though, haha. I'm sat there, talking to him but looking at someone else. I couldn't look away; his eyes are really beautiful. This turquoise-green color? Just mesmerizing! This 'eye-connection' was like, 5seconds long, which isn't that long but it's a long time to be staring at someone.

Oh God, I can't forget those eyes! I also noticed his pupils being really dark and prominent. They kind of appeared to be slightly dilated or something? I read somewhere that dilated pupils mean that you're attracted to someone, so I hope to God that he's noticed me. However, another thought has just popped into my mind. He could have been stoned. Will does pot? So his pupils could have been dilated because of that. Jeez.

So, now I'm starting to feel a little sleepier. Guess I'll write more later ;)

Losing my mind when I saw you here

2011-05-08T18:21:00.002-04:00

Been a while since my last entry! Sorry, I've been so busy with things, mostly school... *BIGSIGH* But the good news is that around mid-June, I'll be free again YAY!

Mitsucchi asked to do this song with me: Ma Boy by SISTA19. I love it now, it's a really cool song. I'm excited to hear how it will turn out :) There's also these really cool rap bits, one big one in Korean and a little one in English at the start. I can't wait to try them out. I know that Mits will sound lovely cute and pretty as GODDAMN FREAKIN ALWAYS!! haha :)

Oh and I've started crushing on this guy. He's called Will and he's so beautiful! He's got perfect pale skin and the cutest curly mop-like hair ever, like a doll. Of course he's taller than me, EVERYBODY'S TALLER THAN ME. And oh my gosh, his eyes are the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen!! They're a turquoise kind of color, and they sparkle. I swear, they SPARKLE!

Ohh I sound like SUCH a girl! Lol. I've only talked to Will a couple of times before in the past, but that was before I started noticing him (how could I have not noticed him before?!) He's friends with Nick, so maybe I can get Nick to help me. Nick and I, we both don't want to ruin our friendship so we've decided to not let anything happen and move on.

Anyway, back to Will. Oh I really want to get to know him properly! I can't say if he's worth it or if I'm actually serious about himbecause I don't really know him that well. Guess I'm only majorly attracted to him then. I want to know if his personality is nice, and that he's one of the good guys, not a jerk. Only thing is, he's kind of a stoner. Not that there's anything wrong with that. It's just that if we did happen, I'm not too sure that my parents would approve...OH WELL. It's not like I listen to them anyway, right?

Run baby run

2011-03-27T16:52:00.002-04:00

Oh my God. I really want to go to Hong Kong. I've just been looking at photos of my aunt's vacation to HK and Christ, it looks amazing!! I HAVE to go. It looks especially beautiful at night. Kind of reminds me of NY but way more exotic because it's CHINA!!

I'm actually considering going just before i head off to college. Like, the summer vacation of 2012? I'll be 18 then so I will be old enough. Me and Katy can go. Her parents will probs be okay with it, since they're from Hong Kong and Katy speaks Cantonese so she'll totally be savvy. Haha. But she's not fluent so...

And then there's the money issue. How expensive will it be? Definitely at least $2000 if we go for a week especially in summer as it's the peak season. Hmm. And what if we run out of money or something?? Disaster!! But it's Hong Kong!

I soooo want to shop there though. Haha I am SUCH a girl! HK do really good designer fakes, don't they?

Like it or love it or leave it

2011-03-19T18:56:00.002-04:00

Isn't jealousy a darned thing? It is definitely not my best friend. I hate it when I get all green-eyed. Speaking of which, green eyes are really beautiful, I love green eyes but only when they're in terms of eye color and not jealousy. Haha.

Oh god. I got a C in Biology and a C in Chemistry for this test and now my parents, especially my mom, keeps going ON about it. Can't they just let it go already? It's not like I'm destined to board the C-grade ship.

And about this Nick problem, I think I'm going to let it go. I really can't be bothered with him and I am soooo not going to wait for him to grow up and be a man! Lol. But seriously, I think I've wasted enough time on him (and you guys have wasted enough time reading about him lol). So now I will focus on things that truly matter. Shopping. Just kidding :) I mean school *yawn*

I've gone off Vampire Diaries and recently I've become obsessed with Gossip Girl again. I've only gone and downloaded the entire first season and part of the second. I know I'll get sick of it and eventually drift back to Vampire Diaries. It's a vicious cycle, I swear!

All my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace

2011-02-09T16:09:00.002-05:00

I haven't been feeling like myself recently. Is it bad that all i need is him? And by him, I mean Nick. Its really bad because I actually feel like shit and depressed because I feel so lost. I seriously don't know what to do. I think I should tell him how I feel. If he's my friend...he deserves the right to know. I'm so scared that I'm falling in love with him. I'm not kidding. This is serious. And I'm really afraid that our friendship will be ruined because he doesn't feel the same way. I only wish I could stop myself from falling so hard.

I don't know how he feels towards me because we never have massive heart to hearts about feelings. Never. Even though he's my best guy friend. I don't know why but I think we both feel this big awkwardness hanging in the air whenever we mention 'feelings'. He's really hard to read sometimes. I heard a rumour a while back that he liked me and Rina told me she overheard that one of his friends saying, 'you like her, don't you?' and referring to me, but idk. It could be and it might not be.

I know that life isn't supposed to be easy but I really wish that it was sometimes.

One heart to break

2011-01-28T15:02:00.002-05:00

I am having the worst day EVER. Like, ever.

I got out of school early because I went to the nurse's office and told her I wasn't feeling so good. She felt my forehead and said I had no temperature so I knew that I had to turn to more drastic measures. So I went into the toilet and threw up. Made myself threw up. That's bad, I know. I'm not bulimic though, I swear. I've never made myself throw up before, this is the first time. And may I just say right now that I WILL NEVER EVER DO IT AGAIN.

I just feel like absolute shit today. I just - I thought I got over Nick over Christmas break. It was nice to just get away but now? I think I'm falling for him again. AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! I can't stop think about him. See? It sounds so lame. This is so freaking disgusting. I hate this sick, soppy feeling. GRRR. I mean, it's not like he's the most attractive person in the entire world. He's not pretty like Paul Wesley, or sexy like Ian Somerhalder. Or, beautiful and godlike like Jamie. But he is my friend. The friend that I'm scared of falling in love with. Well, love is a bit of a strong word, so let's call it a crush. How middle-school of me, right? XD

My iPhone has broke. I dropped it in a mug of coffee. I'm awesome. Oh but I'm so dead when my mom finds out. She's gonna freaking kill me. Haha XD Maybe I can hide it from her. Yeah, sure I can ;)

One chance to keep from falling...

2011-01-22T12:58:00.002-05:00

I am a total Vampire Diaries geek. LOOOL.

I got hooked onto it a couple of months or so back and because I got into it so late into the series, I missed the entire first season and the first 7 episodes of the second season. Well actually, I watched Miss Mystic Falls (the 19th episode of season one) and didn't get it, so I didn't watch the rest of it. But then I remembered sometime later and curiosity drew me in to watch it again. So I caught the 7th episode of season two (Masquerade) and then I kept watching the rest of it from then on :)

But obviously I didn't really understand because I had missed the entire first season (except the 19th one haha) so my dad got me the season one DVD for Christmas so I've been catching up like the geek that I am haha :3 so now I understand! *GEEK*

Now all I need is to catch up on the first 7 episodes of season two! I've bought The Return episode (2x01) off iTunes so I've watched it, saw the return of Katherine, saw John Gilbert leav (for now, presumably), saw Jeremy die and come back to life again and witnessed (omg) Damon's feelings come out! Aw.

Right now, I'm watching Bad Moon Rising (2x03). I've JUST finished watching Brave New World (2x02) and Caroline's a vampire after being smothered with a pillow by Katherine and having Damon's blood in her system at her time of death...

Wow xD This is a post dedicated to me and me watching Vampire Diaries haha. GEEEEEK :P

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

2010-12-31T17:47:00.002-05:00

EEEK! I'm sorry!! I forgot to wish you all a Happy Christmas! I got busy and then my mom and dad had loads of people over and it was all so crazy (but fun at the same time). I had a great Christmas. Did you?

I went shopping earlier today - shopping for last minute essentials for this party at this girl who's in my Chem class. The party's at 9pm.. there's still a while yet but I'm going to get ready soon so this will be very short.

I hope you've all had a KICK-ASS 2010 and I wish you all the best for the New Year!!! :)

Live like there's no tomorrow

2010-12-20T13:38:00.003-05:00

Wouldn't it be really weird if you knew exactly what was going to happen in your life? You'd know whether or not you'd get to live out your dream. You'd know how many children you'd have. You'd know exactly when and where you'd meet the love of your life. "The One". That would be pretty cool. But then again, you'd know when you'd die. That's horrible. I don't want to know. It's weird that every year, you're passing your deathday but you don't know. Unless you choose it for yourself.

You know how everyone always says that honesty is the best policy and that a good relationship is an honest one? Like, with no secrets? That's great, but where's the mystery? Where's the element of surprise? You have to admit that it's exciting when your boyfriend comes back after being away for a week and you have no idea what he's been doing. Or maybe I'm just twisted that way. If there were no secrets in a relationship, wouldn't it be a little...boring?

But I'm not a fan of lying, don't get me wrong, I'm all up for telling the truth. However sometimes a little white lie is necessary to dig yourself out of unintentional and metaphorical holes.

I haven't blogged for a while now and I have a lot to say. That's why, if you're reading this (if you are then hooray - pat yourself on the back!) you might think that I'm being a bit scatty and the topic focus keeps changing.

I'm really glad that it's almost Christmas because that means Christmas break - yay! That means no school - double yay! I swear, teachers have nothing better else to do than to load mountains of assignments and schoolwork onto the shoulders of their students. The question is WHY?! Doesn't more assignments mean more marking for them? That equals more work and more time taken out of their free time. I should take up this argument with my History teacher. She's a massive fan of assignments. Her motto = all work and no play makes you a better person everyday! Yeah, I know, that doesn't makesense at all - haha! I just made it up on the spot and I'm no good at this poetry business.

I can feel a headache coming along. Great. I'm off now, but I'll write a little something here on the 25th. Just to wish everyone a Merry Christmas :)

I think I'll be brave, starting with you

2010-11-28T17:04:00.002-05:00

Thanksgiving was great!...and bad at the same time because...

IT WAS AWESOME because I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows on Sunday and I think it was totally freaking awesome....!! Though, I know quite a few people who said that it was poor...and that they were expecting it to be way better. They said that the trailer was awesome but the actual movie was *bleep*. HOW DARE THEY?! I think it was good :)

IT WAS BAD because I was ill :( Yes. And even worse, I was ill on a day when there was no school and wait, it gets better! The next day (when we had school), I was better so I had to go to school. Eurgh. xD

I went shopping today. Bought a cute skirt and a pretty jacket. My mom gave me like, $150 to buy a new coat and I got this greyish-greenish coat from H&M, which is kind of cool military-chic, but now I want a classic kind of coat. One in maybe a pretty navy-blue/midnight blue shade? A nice dark blue color. Not the high-school dark blue color. Ew.

Lucky it's almost Christmas. Christmas = presents! Everybody loves getting presents :)

Pumpkins and broomsticks

2010-10-31T14:22:00.002-04:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY! I can't write here for long because I'm going to a Halloween party tonight and I gotta get my hair done ;) so this is going to be a relatively short post.

I just wanted to wish you all a happy HAPPY Halloween: and to have fun trick o' treating for candy, or raving the night away in fancy dress at some cool underground club. Or if parties aren't your scene, get some friends over and stay up watching horror flicks all night.

Now I really got to go. Hairdresser's waiting! I know that everyone's gonna get totally wasted tonight and school is going to be tough tomorrow, but whatever. We're still gonna have fun! Yeah!

I could really use a wish right now

2010-10-28T18:45:00.002-04:00

I went shopping today! After school, of course. Like I would skip class...LOL. Okay *changes subject*

So I bought some skirts, a really cute jacket from Topshop and OH MY GOSH, an amazing new coat from H&M. I love it! And the best part is that it only coat like $56...WHAT A BARGAIN! I mean, it's awesome when you buy expensive stuff and wear it, knowing that it's beautiful AND expensive. It makes you feel...kind of proud. Especially when people say, "Oh my gosh, your (item of clothing) is so gorgeous! Where did you get it from?" and you're like "Marc Jacobs" and *smug smile* LOL. But it feels nicer when you buy cheap stuff that looks gorgeous. Plus, it doesn't hurt your wallet either :)

Your love is off the chain

2010-10-27T15:38:00.003-04:00

I haven't updated this thing in a while! Sorry for neglecting you for so long! Jeez, school is so mean.

I don't know what to write about today. Except that...I can't wait for winter xD I mean, proper winter. Authentic New Yorkian winter, with snow 4 ft deep and children building snowmen and pelting snowballs at each other. And let's not forget the shopping. Yay! Highlight of the season :) Okay I admit. I'm a bit of a shopaholic. But hey! I'm a girl! It's like, in female genes. Just like how all - or most - boys love football and soccer and shooting hoops and other sports.

I'm still stuck for words for what to do about Nick.. he's so - complicated and difficult and complex. He's a tough nut to crack (Lol). But seriously though. He's so SO ignorant and insensitive and just when I start to think about giving up on him (but not without smacking him first), he turns incredibly sweet and then it makes me think "oh how amazing is he?". Until I remember how insensitive he was only a few moments earlier. I FEEL LIKE TEARING MY HAIR OUT.

Gosh I'm incredibly pathetic xDD. Rina told me - a few days ago - that she heard one of Nick's friends say "OH MY GOD, you like TIFFANY DON'T YOU?!" to Nick...Now I'm trying not to get my hopes up because I hate it when they get too high, only to come crashing back down again. But I can't help crossing my fingers and my toes though. Lol!

Did you forget?

2010-09-24T16:12:00.002-04:00

Three things have happened to me recently. I feel like I should vent out my feelings and emotions now because it's not "emotionally healthy" to bottle up your feelings.

I think I have finally managed to build a bridge and get over Jamie. It's about time. That's the only good news so far.

I am afraid that I am losing contact with one of my friends. She's one of closest friends, I've known her as long as I've known Katy - so we've been friends since like, 6th grade or something. Ever since the start of this year, ever since the start of 11th grade, Nareena seems...different. She seems like she wants to be part of the "popular" crowd. She never has time for the rest of us anymore. And even when she does, she still doesn't act like herself. Nareena's constantly acting like someone's about to take her photo and put it in a tabloid or something. It's like, god, you don't have to be on show all the time.

I'm not sure if I want to make an effort to talk to her now. The rest of our friends, they're still making an attempt, but I feel some "frostiness" radiating from Nareena now. Like, there's a giant ice wall between her and us. I really don't know how to explain it. I should really see how it goes now. But at the moment, I feel like I don't want to be friends with her anymore, if she's going to change like that.

Changing...for the better? or for the worse?

I'm really so very hopeless. I'm such an hopeless case. I'm so much of a hopeless case that, I think I'm falling for one of my friends. No. No. It's a guy friend. LOL. xD I think he might be one of the reasons that I'm over Jamie. It's better...and worse in a way.

Why do boys always act different when they're with their friends? Is it because they want to seem "cool"? It's so not cool. Someone should tell them that. I will. He...Nick...I love it when his friends arent around because he's so much better to be with when they're not there. It's not like he's terribly when he's with them, it's just that... Nick always acts totally childish and immature with them. I want to tell him that I like him, but I'm afraid that it'll ruin our friendship.

He's in my homeroom. We also have Chemistry together. So I pretty much see him every single day. Today, he and his friend walked in late to class. I won't lie. My heart actually jumped when I saw him walk into the classroom. But I didn't look at him because I was too busy filing my nails. Not that I wasn't watching him from the corner of my eye. Then I heard Nick approach my table but his friend wanted to sit on some table on the other side of the room because one of their other friends was sitting there. And then they had a small argument over where to sit. Because I was totally listening whilst filing my nails. Nick was like, "No, let's just sit here," (in my head, I was like YES, PLEASE SIT HERE) and his friend was all, "No we're going over there". And then eventually they sat on the other side of the classroom. So I was totally cursing Alex in my head the whole lesson.

oh my. I am so...wicked xD I wish that Alex would suddenly fall ill and be off for the next couple of weeks.

And all I can say -

2010-09-12T11:21:00.002-04:00

Annoying Girl - you know who I mean. The one who thinks she's gorgeous and smart and every boy is in love with her. She shouts, "Me, me, me!" and waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question. She's the most self-righteous person in the room, but she's insecure about appearing too self-righteous, so she giggles a lot and acts stupid to hide her supposed genius. And she's the loudest, messiesr drunk you've ever seen. Without her friends, she'd pass out in a puddle of sick on the bathroom floor or wind up going home with some sleazy older guy. But her friends always seem to take pity on her, and the next day she's bouncier thanever, smiling like nothing happened.

The thing about Annoying Girl is, whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us. That's why we love to hate her so much. She's our worst nightmare. I mean, how many times have you wanted to wave your hand in the air when you knew the answer, only stopping yourself because you didn't want to look like an idiot? And how many times have you wanted to just sit down in a boy's lap and start kissing him but didn't for fear he's laugh in your face? In a way, Annoying Girl is us, minus the insecurity. She's so fine with herself you want to slap her. But you also secretly wish you could be that obnoxious without any concern for what other people might think.

That massive chunk of text up there, is a quote from Gossip Girl: You're the One That I Want. I was reading the book (awesome btw) when I came across that section up there and I thought how true it was! I mean, this "Annoying Girl" really does sound super annoying. And we all love to hate her. This girl, well, I think that's it's pretty true when Cecily von Ziegesar says that "...whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us." As I read that part, my immediate response was, "What the heck. No way am I at all like that girl," But then I really thought about it (I mean, really thought about it) and realized that I do have a trace of her in me! The second paragraph of the quote...is true xD for me, anyway. Like, when your teacher asks a question in class, and even though you know the answer perfectly, you don't put your hand up because you don't want to look too smarty-pants and nerdy.

There's a girl in my homeroom who is totally the Annoying Girl. She really does think that all the boys are in love with her because she thinks she's stunning and she always waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question/for a volunteer. However, she plasters herself in make-up and I can always see gross blusher and foundation that doesn't match her skintone so she always looks orange. So...if she wears this much makeup then...she can't be totally secure about her looks, can she? If she thinks that she's so gorgeous, then she should just go au naturale. So she's just a LOT like the Annoying Girl, and not exactly like her, after all. Ah. I'm deep. LOL xD

Oh I'm a gypsy. Are you coming with me?

2010-08-23T14:05:00.002-04:00

SO SO SO! I went to Spain and now I'm back.

It was really hot in Spain. Not as hot as China, of course (ha!), but it was like, over 80 degrees out. (In China, I'm pretty sure that it was over 100). And OMG OMG OMGGG! Can I just say now that Spanish guys are really hot!! haha xD No, I'm deadly serious! Practically every single male that I saw (between the ages of 15 and 25) were quite.. you know, pretty. ;)

My brother and my dad made us all visit the soccer stadium or something in Barcelona. Largest in Europe?? And then brother got a shirt from a stall outside because we were originally going to buy him a FC-Barcelona soccer shirt but then we saw the prices... it was like $200 *O* NO WAY. For a Topshop item, yes, but for something on soccer? no way hose. LOOL xD I'm kidding haha. But it's still expensive. My brother got a David Villa shirt. What number again? 10 or 7? All I can remember is that the guy who was behind the stall was really cute. He looked like Enrique Iglesias ;) and jesus, he had nice eyes ^_^"

It was really nice in Spain, except that most of the people couldn't speak English much and even if they could, it was with a heavy accent or something, so kind of hard to communicate. Had to resort to hand gestures and eye movements. I suppose it's understandable, because it IS a different country so they have a different language. They maybe learn English at school, just like I learn French at school. But I suck at French haha!

I'm falling hard for you

2010-08-17T11:36:00.003-04:00

MY NEEDS ~ I HAVE GIRLY NEEDS ^_^"

I really really really REALLY want this coat:

It costs like $200 though! URGHHHHH.... but it's worth it, right? It's a good investment, because I'll be wearing it all winter and fall and spring...

GOTTA PERSUADE MY MOTHER.

Like fire and rain

2010-08-17T11:11:00.004-04:00

HAHA ~ so I told my friends about my new haircut and naturally they all wanted to see and were like, OMG WHAT'S IT LIKE. So then I sent them a couple of photos (because I'm vain and cute and all that [haha]).

Nick said that I looked hot. LOL. I was like, whaaat? and then he shrugged and went, "All Chinese girls are hot." By Chinese, I think he meant oriental, but yeah, same diff. Aw! It's nice to have guy friends who make you feel better by complimenting you ^-^. You know how we girls are insecure and paranoid about our looks? Like, "Does this skirt make my butt look big?" and "Is my hair too flat?".

Speaking of skirts, I recently bought this really cute skirt at H&M. It's black and just longer than mid-thigh, and it's got gold buttons down the front. It's kind of high-waisted, I guess. I'll show you guys a photo later.

EDIT: OKAY IT'S LATER~

This isn't me wearing it by the way! It's some other girl that I don't know~ I was searching the Internet for a picture of just the skirt but couldn't find any, so...

URGH. HOW EARLY! See y'all later ;D

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

2010-08-15T17:30:00.002-04:00

I'll be needing to show you all my photos from China sometime soon. It's almost been a month since we first set off!! But you know how lazy I am xD

Nothing happened with Jamie.. he's just so confusing, maybe I just let go, once and for all. It's hard to be with someone who can't seem to be able to make up their mind!! Sometimes I just want to smack him on the head and say "What do you want?". Not that I can reach that high, anyway.

Katy told me that she saw him looking at me quite a few times. BUT I WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION! Urgh, I wish that he would look at me when I'm looking at him, and I would look at him when he's looking at me!! What a crazy world, huh?

Oh and there's this other girl who likes him as well. It seems like a lot of girls have their eye on him. WTF. But the biggest WTF is that this girl is only in eight grade. How does she know him?! LOL, but the most important question is... WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? Lol, I'm sucha bitch, aren't I? A possessive one, at that xD I'm sorry! I just need to vent. and let it all out. whoosh. But-but-but-!! I can't believe that this little middle-schooler thinks that she can have my Jamie... ah. What am I taking about? She doesn't have him xD. I don't think he likes her, he's just too nice to show it.

ARGH! Haha xD I'm so crazy!! ^-^" Sorry ~ gomen ne for being such a crazy and possessive beeetch xD

Hm. I wonder what Jamie would have done if I just grabbed him and kissed him. Haha, an even better thought... I wonder how the eight-grader would react if I just suddenly made out with him right in front of her. I am so evil! I have to learn to be nicer xD. It would break her heart, probably. No. She's too young to know what love is, and to have her heart properly broken. I mean, properly. Even I don't know. xD Not that I'm ancient or anything. I'm only, what? 3 years older. Jamie's 3 years older than her... she's too young for him... MEH. xDD

Love and kisses,
XXXXXX

LATEST CHOP!

2010-08-15T17:20:00.005-04:00

Soooo.... I haven't updated my blog lately. I guess I just kind of forgot about it and everytime I remembered, I was too lazy to sign in and type a bunch of nonsense and babble xDD

BUT! I've had my hair cut *O*
It was quite long before, and then I had it cut to just past my shoulders before I went to China and now....

(My eyes look weird here :3)

It's.... it feels sooo different! It feels as though my hair is tied back, but it's not (obviously haha. It's too short to be tied back now)

It was like this before:

A great thing about having short hair is that it doesn't take long to wash and blowdry. But a bad thing would be that you get flyaway hairs. I guess hair is "heavy" when it's long so my hair was quite obedient and stayed down, but now.. sometimes, I get the rebels on my head that just decide to stand up. xDD

Down days

2010-07-15T18:32:00.000-04:00

you know those days when you feel absolutely and so stubbornly down? well i am having one of those days. *sigh* Let's start with the giant killer headache i have. BIGGEST HEADACHE KNOWN TO MAN. No kidding. So i'm listening to calming soothing songs. Unfortunately most of the lovely slow headache-soothing songs are about love which remind me of Jamie. By the way he's got a new girl now. He says that we'll always be friends but it is so hard to be his friend. Urgh god my head throbs. Luckily i am jetting off to China in just over a week's time. Unluckily however, Jamie is going too... But! His girlfriend isnt going... *cackles* no lol im not that kind of girl. Or am i? No i am most definitely NOT. Cmon and resist you weakling! He's just a stupid boy. OMG I AM GOING NUTS. Well this is going to be an...ahem interesting vacation (:

MY STAR

2010-07-14T13:07:00.004-04:00

I read somewhere that the actor Jeremy Sumpter is 6ft 2, you know, because I'm a stalker fan-girl and all LOL. That's pretty tall. Nearly 190cm? Hm. Jamie is 6ft 2 as well. HAHA xD they both have blond hair, blue eyes. PLUS. I saw this video on Youtube, where Jeremy was being interviewed about something (can't remember, I was too busy being mesmerized by his cuteness) and I suddenly noticed that his voice sounds reeally similar to Jamie's. LOLOLOL I know~ I'm just being paranoid and weird. Just, you know, both their names begin with J.

I wish I was taller. If I was taller, like 2, maybe 3 inches taller, I would look really skinny. I aspire to be approximately 5ft 5 inches when I'm older. Haha. I'm so short, god-dammit. But short is cute, right?!

Hm. I don't want to be too tall though, if you get my drift xD. It would be nice to be supermodel-tall (models are always sexy-looking *jealous jealous*), I suppose, but I don't want to be taller than all the boys I know. Then again, I don't hold attractions for really short boys. I think they're cute though!

I think I notice blond boys the most. I'm not sure why. I think it's because I, in my mind, usually associate pixies, elves and fairies, etc, to have blond hair. Like, cheeky and mischievous! Yeah. Jamie has blond hair *sighs dreamily*. Awww @ when he blushes!! It's soooo adorable and sweet when he's embarrassed about something and goes red. It's like he's a little boy xD.

I AM SO OBSESSED. Slap me.

NEVERLAND!

2010-07-13T13:18:00.002-04:00

Okay, so I went to my friend's house like, a couple of days ago, and we just hung out like girls do. Did our nails, our eyebrows and whatnot. Then we watched a movie and got a takeout.

OMG. We watched Peter Pan, the 2003 version, starring Jeremy Sumpter, Jason Isaacs and Rachel Hurd-wood. I know, i know what you're thinking, KIDS MOVIE, right? Yeah, that's what I thought, and didn't really watch it. I just fidgeted and yawned for the first half, and then I started to really get into it. I totally regret the fact that I messed about for the first half hour of the film. I also missed bits of the end and the middle. So I basically only watched the parts in between. DAMN! So I've got my dad to order the film online. Amazon.com

EEEEP. Jeremy Sumpter is soooooo adorable! His smile... is like.. so charming! and cheeky. I just want to pinch his cute little cheeks xD Apparently he's 21 years old now, so... I won't do that xD. Anyways, he looks like a really pretty girl. It's a good thing because the really hot guys usually look like really pretty girls. In my opinion. LOL. I totally sound like a lesbian now xD. Haha

*excited excited* I can't wait 'til the movie arrives, so I can watch it properly! Actually daddy hasn't ordered it yet. he says "next week". So... yay! *excited excited*

Sweetie

2010-07-02T17:09:00.002-04:00

Ohh... I haven't wrote in my dear sweet blog for almost a month! I'm sorry baby hugs* lol :) I also forgot to wite here on my birthday to update you all on my wonderful day! ^^ Oh well.

I did have a great day, thank you for asking ;) It was awesome because everyone treated me like a princess ;D hehe! Ahh.. it's good being a V.I.P lol!
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I didn't get most of things that I put on my wishlist, but I'll admit... I was being a bit of a far-fetched air-head xDD LOL! I'll also add that even though I was kind of disappointed, I was still really pleased with all my sweet 16 gifts, because... well! I don't want to an ungrateful little rich-bitch or something like that haha :)

But I love being spoiled though. I won't deny. Who doesn't?!
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URGH sjdnsjkhikfh!! My computer is actually taking the piss. I'm sorry for my language but it's true! It's so freaking slow. *kicks*

CHA CHA CHA CHAAA

2010-06-05T14:23:00.007-04:00

Goodness me, I have a busy week coming up! Tomorrow is my birthday *SQUEEE!* and I'll be 16 *SWEET 16!* I'm as excited as a 5-year old (MATURENESS). I've been hinting heavily to my friends and parents and other relatives about stuff that I want. Shall we have a re-cap?

1. an Apple iPad ('tis SO AMAZING)

The iPad is a tablet computer designed and marketed by Apple for Internet browsing, media consumption, gaming and light content creation...it established a new class of devices between smartphones and laptops

LAPTOPS ARE SOOO LAST YEAR...!!

2. A Blackberry

...mobile e-mail and smartphone device

3. A CAR (need I say how AWESOME it would be to own my very own, very FIRST car?!?)

I don't really mind what kind, but I like convertibles *hint hint* and maybe something along the lines of *cough*BMW-JAGUAR-MERCEDES*cough* (know what I mean?) but no pressure xD
Oh - and red is a nice color - sexy (scarlet? ruby? blood-red??)
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4. A high-waisted skirt (preferably from Topshop, H&M, etc..)

..sooo cute! Also, I'm toying with the preppy college-girl look at the moment ;D

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5. The entire collection of Richard Montanari books
I don't usually read (LOL - sorry. I'm always waaaay too busy) but I got hooked onto Montanari's books when I first read Play Dead (picked up the wrong book in the library). And may I just say that it WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING?! The way Montarai writes is just so..awesome..keeps you hooked onto every word..it's suspenseful and a "soul-chilling thriller".

Just. Love. It
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This morning, I got a package, one that I had to sign. As soon as I saw the postage stamp - it's from my grandparents who live in Osaka. The package is kind of bigish, about 12 inches by maybe 14 inches? 15inches? and soft. It's squishy, which can only mean one thing..CLOTHES! YES. I SURE DO LOVE CLOTHES. Especially from Japan. It means that it's unlikely that I'll see someone else wearing the same outfit xD lol. Sorry, i'm shallow in that sense :P

Then another package from my aunts (Dad's sisters) who live in Japan as well - Tokyo. It's a box. I shook it and there was this hollow clunking sort of noise. I hope it's shoes. It sure does sound like shoes! :D
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Geez, I'm excited! ^^ It's unlikely that I'll get the car, because I don't see any car insurance papers anywhere. Nor do I see the car itself. But no matter! *fingers crossed* OOOOOH! I CAN'T WAIT! Plus - there's always the party :)

Hmm.. which reminds me. I still got to plan it. I can't have it this weekend (obvs - it's waaay too short a notice) or the next because I've still got my summer exams. So most likely, around the 20th June. *thinks* Yeah.

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I've run out of my favorite Sally Hansen Regular Nail Polish Remover (for all nail types, with Vitamin E and Apricot Extract). My aunt (Mom's sister. I sure do have a lot of aunts. I actually have NO uncles that are blood-related to me. Just the ones that are married to my aunts) who lives somewhere in England introduced me to Sally Hansen products when she came over for Christmas a few years back. This polis remover is so DARN GOOD! It removes all traces of varnish ;D
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I just love!

Fall down 7 times, get up 8...

2010-05-23T10:08:00.004-04:00

An old proverb apparently. That's what my daddy said to me last night when I was stressing about my hair, my exams, my weird relationship with Nick.. well. Just life in general. He said, "Fall down seven times, get up eight", and I just looked at him like what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about and you-are so not helping-right-now. Because he really wasn't, even though I know that he was trying to be. Jeez. Dads just don't get it!

I really do have a weird relationship with Nick..I mean, he's one of my closest best guy friends, and I tell him practically everything but recently things have been a bit weird and we haven't talked about stuff that we normally talk about. I don't know what's going on.

And exams are really getting to me now. Even though my first exam was last Tuesday (World Religion Section A) and my second was on Friday (Advanced Biology). I know what you're all thinking - jeez girl, get a grip on yourself. It's been less than a week and you've only had two exams - that's nothing! Wait til you get out into the real world. It's true, I know, but I'm weak, helpless and totally spineless. (really!) My third exam is World Religion Section B, which is tomorrow, but I had a huge cram-in revision session last night, and I feel obese and really overweight because I was on the couch, reading through my notes, snacking on curly fries for about 5 hours. (not really 5, more like 2, but you get the gist). AHHHHH

There's something weird going on with my hair as well. My bangs grows way too fast and always uneven even though I get it cut perfectly straight like, every weekend. (see = I'm a control-freak). I'm thinking of dyeing my hair. I don't know what color though. Natsuyaki Miyabi color is a little too light for me, I'm not taking huge steps into the World of Hairdye just yet. But maybe dark brown, like...Tanaka Reina's in Nanchatte Renai? Reina was definitely wearing a wig because her hair is a much lighter auburn/brown color (unless they dyed it dark, then back to normal. If they did that, then I really feel for Tanaka. Dyeing ruins your hair SO MUCH!). Let's see...

(will find a pic and post later)

Pretty, right? But I'm worried that I'd have to bleach my hair before getting it dyed. Even though it's a dark color that I want, because my hair is practically black (a really dark brown cos apparently black isn't a real hair color [wtf?!]).

Bomb in Times Square

2010-05-02T18:48:00.000-04:00

Yesterday. OMG...Mom told me. And its in the news...the police found an improv bomb in a car on 45th Street and Seventh Avenue. Times Spuare was evacuated...it is like, one of the busiest places in NY...i guess that's why the Pakistani Talibans chose it. People have been saying that this is a potential terrorist attack. I'm actually a little freaked now. Remembering the attack on the World Trade Center.. Twin Towers? 9/11? :S Why would they do something so cruel? Dont they know how much suffering would've happened?There were tourists too! Innocent kids. Many people. UNBELIEVABLE. I don't want the whole of New York to blow..! But that is just what they want.

Echo...in my mind

2010-04-26T13:18:00.000-04:00

I'm worried that i will never get over Jamie. It is like he has uncovered something that no other guy has ever found before. Something about him is too...too hooking. I'm not making sense here but now im totally getting depressed. And for a dumb cause too. -Sigh-

It comes naturally...

2010-04-24T12:43:00.003-04:00

...bay-bay-baby

I really love that song, Naturally, by Selena Gomez & The Scene.

I have to buy their album, Kiss and Tell.

Doesn't Selena look so damn gorgeous? She is SO pretty and cute. I admire her ^.^

and OMG I WANT THOSE DRESSES. all of them. and that gold bead necklace. It looks really fiddly and reminds me of a Christmas tree (in a good way though). When she wears the pink dress, she looks good - that color really suits her ;D

"You are the thunder and I am the lightning..." and I love the way you know who you are and to me, it's exciting

Everything comes naturally...it comes naturally when you're with me, baby...

What I'm loving atm -

2010-04-24T12:30:00.005-04:00

LOOK AT THIS MINNA

I'm getting really into K-pop.
I HEART:

- DBSK (forever Yunho)
- SNSD (heart heart)
- KARA (recently I've become hooked to "Wanna" and "Honey"

I love that beat in Honey. Now it is just me, or do at least 2 of the girls look A LOT like Sohee from The Wonder Girls?? xD

HONEY HONEY HONEY

The first song that I heard from KARA. It's super catchy ;D Like Honey, I'm also lovin' that beat and the girls are so pretty. Plus, I'm digging their clothes :P They also wear a lot of liner, just like me. Ha xD

GRRR. why are they all so gorgeous???

let's get CRAZY

2010-04-23T12:14:00.003-04:00

Hey! Thank you to ALL my lovely subscribers...I've finally reached 100! ;D I don't know when... because I've not signed in, and I haven't been on for like, a week now ^^ but thanks! minna :)

And today, I was cutting my bangs and a hair got into my eye. So now my eye is red D: Not only am I slowly going crazy (because I haven't seen the lovely Tom for at LEAST 2 weeks) but I'm also bad-tempered in pain from my eye.

Anyways, gotta go now. I'll write some more stuff when I get home...I'm writing this on my phone (which is crap) at school (cause I'm a rebel) AND it's taking too long to write all of this. Plus, Miss Haughton is totally looking and is probably going to give me detention and confiscate my phone. Not that I care.

Time to update!

2010-04-18T18:43:00.001-04:00

I think it's time for a change. CHANGE OF PHOTOS!

I've taken some new ones and so will update my crappy profile photo soon. Next week ;D

GREAT DAY

2010-04-09T19:18:00.000-04:00

My eyeliner was absolutely perfect today. It was so even, not too thin - not too thick, and the perfect shape. I know i sound big-headed and conceited but I'm not even kidding. I never kid about eyeliner!

sweet GRRR!

2010-04-08T17:44:00.002-04:00

oh my GOOOOSH! I'm going out of my mind here with boredom. I can't just sit here at my computer and not record D:

Oh wait - I don't have a microphone. doh

I've been watching movie trailers and stuff on Youtube instead. Look:

Starstruck (2010): An Original Disney Movie

I watched it when it came out and I decided to watch it again because I'm really bored to tears here. Personally, I think that this is a good movie. It's cute, but totally no way realistic. Jessica (Danielle Campbell) - she's funny. I like her character. She's sarcastic and cynical but she's also not afraid to say what she thinks. She won't do something just because other people are. Peer pressure. I think that's a good quality. I wish I was strong like that. But I'm totally weak.

ANNOUNCEMENT TO ALL

2010-04-04T17:06:00.002-04:00

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT. If you haven't already read it on my Youtube page; then please read it here. RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.

I did something bad so I've been grounded. My mom has decided to confiscate my mic from me as a punishment and as part of my grounding. I'm only allowed it back on the 20th June.

20TH JUNE!! DX

So that means.... NO RECORDING. NO NEW DUBS. NO LINES. NO NOTHING. Well, I guess that it is all my fault. I shouldn't have done what I did. To all my projects~ I am REAAAALLY SORRY. I have been sending out PMs to all of you guys, telling you this and that I'm going on a hiatus until the end of June. Of course, I'm coming back. You can't get rid of me that easily (mwahahahaha LOL).

Do you want to know what I did? I'm going to tell you anyway.

Well, all I did was skip my Chem lab class and then sneak out to meet a...friend. Then I got caught. For both. They didn't even happen at the same time. I mean~ I skipped the class in the daytime when I was sat school and then in the evening, I snuck out. I guess the sneaking out made everything worse. I should have just stuck with the skipping.

I asked my mom a couple of nights before if I could go out with this guy, Derek, and she said no because she knew him and she thought that he was a bad influence. (Like I care what she thinks. I was gonna go out with him anyway, whatever she said). I guess Mom read my mind or something because she said, "If you dare to go out with him anyway, Miyako, you'll be in serious trouble."

But i did~ and she must have expected me to because I got caught. Yeah. How lame. Derek may never ask me out again. And then the next day, I discovered that I had a detention from skipping Chem class and then only a few days ago~ Mom found out and yeah. She grounded me.

So no microphone until June. D:

But regardless of the consequences, whenever Mom goes out, I'm going to sneak my mic out of wherever my mom hid it and record as many lines as possible before she gets back. I wonder where she hid it. Probably on the top shelf of her wardrobe. Yeah.

Soku Dakishi-METE

2010-03-29T13:11:00.001-04:00

i really like that C-ute song - Soku Dakisimete. And isn't Megumi's voice soo amazing? Plus, she is realy pretty! Oh~ and the beat makes me think of basketball xD OR MAYBE it is just the PV. Btw im blogging on my phone so sometimes my spelling is kind of bad. Tis lunch break! Then i gotta go back to SCHOOL..YUCK YUCK YUK. Yay for Starbucks ^^ mmm...MOCHA is niiice ;D

Your world~ is my world

2010-03-28T14:41:00.002-04:00

Oh YES. I think I am getting over Jamie. At LONG LAST.

Tom's all I can think about. When I close my eyes~ I can see his adorable face. Wow~ he is amazingly cute *_*

Well. It was my mom's birthday like, 2-3 weeks ago and only recently have I got her a birthday present (whoops!) She really liked it ^^. Which I'm pleased about. It's this bag~ cos she's always saying how she never has enough bags and how they're never big enough, so I went out and got her a new bag. It's quite nice. Her new bag, I mean. It's light brown, leather with a cute little front pocket that has a clasp on it. AND like, 3 pockets inside (cos moms love extra baggage space)

I'll totally borrow it one day.

But the worst part was when I looked at the name of the bag (in shops, items always have like, a name to them. Like~ when u buy a baby doll top, its called "BABY DOLL SHORT POLKA" or something like that. You know?). The bag was called JAMIE.

Are you kidding me?

chu-chu-chu~

2010-03-24T19:19:00.000-04:00

Good day today. except that Veronica and Nadine decided to take a day off from school so it was just me, Rina and Katy hanging around. Anyways i had my hair curly today and i kind of looked like Aika Mitsui xD in Shouganai Yume Oibito =) well better obv. KIDDING ;D i think that she's so pretty and cute. AND her smile is adorable! Loads of people seem to hate her ~ why? Okay so her singing isn't as good as...say Ai or Risa but Aika has just the same amount of cutey personality. Which is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING to look for in a person

SMILES all around

2010-03-22T06:32:00.002-04:00

Oh wooow! i went on a trip to see some great-aunt who lives in Chicago. My parents made me. They said it was because there was a niece who lived there and when she was younger, she was an amazing cheerleader. She's like 30 something now. Anyway i got bored just hanging around with just adults all day, Great-Aunt Hatsuyo is a really fussy old lady but Aunty Miki was nice, so i went and sat out on the porch.

Then i saw a guy. Turns out he lives next door. He smiled at me and at first i thought he was hideous and soo not my type but then he started to talk to me and i realized that he had really pretty eyes. Shiny, twinkly, sooo pretty. Blue. He's called Tom. He has blond hair' flawless skin and has the most adorable nose ever. I couldnt resist so i poked it. (ha! and he just looked at me, but didn't say anything. I wonder what he thought??)

Tom isnt very tall, only a couple of inches more than me, but he's really funny. I think he's hilarious. He swears a lot though! I wont tell Mom and Dad that. :D

However he is a ninth grader, one below me. Hmm... But he is so cute and nice plus he makes me laugh. Oh, and we ate ice cream out in the glorious sun and he shared his Pringles with me. Then he took his top off for a bit cos it got too hot and i was like *O* WOO! :D Actually it wasn't all that~ nothing there really. Just toned. Hairless.

i kind of really want to see him again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIKO~!

2010-03-13T11:01:00.007-05:00

Today, my dear friends, is Aiko (AikoAki)'s birthday! On this day, she turns 14 ^^so I wish her a very happy birthday and hope that she has a lovely day ♥

and don't forget to have a party ^^. Parties are the best part of birthdays. Oh~ and getting presents is great as well! ;D

"Amaenbo"

OPV~ foolishfish007

Aiko-cha - I know you love Reina Tanaka so I found you this lovely OPV by one of the greatest OPV makers of our generation xD - foolishfish007. Please support his work ♥

and this song is originally by Otsuka Ai (you know I love Otsuka). It reminds me a lot of you actually, Aiko. I mean~ I chose Kingyo Hanabi for Mitsu because it's so calm, soft and sweet just like Mitsu but for you, Amaenbo because of the rock n' roll guitars xDD. Calm in the beginning and then crazy, wild and full of energy ♥

I don't know how else to explain my choice of songs but I usually choose birthdays and other special event songs according to the person/event that I'm singing for ^^. Hehe ;D

Anyways~ let's cut this post short. Have a wonderful day Ai-kitty! Love you! ♥

Miya xxx

o_O

2010-03-12T08:54:00.001-05:00

I am so weird. I can't believe that I actually wrote all that below. Maybe I should just go back to sleep again. Yeah. Night everybody! (even though its like 9am now~ but wth, thats early.)

Huh

2010-03-12T08:49:00.002-05:00

Oh, and I had a dream that I auditioned for a project with 12 generations. It was really weird. Then I woke up and fell asleep again. I had that dream where u dream that you're falling, and of course I woke up AGAIN. Shaking. Dang it, I am such a wimp. And then... I had a THIRD dream about that stupid bastard-bitch Jamie. I hate seeing him in my dreams.... it means that my mind, soul and body longs for him.

*slams fist into table* ~ why can't I forget him?! I need someone else to obsess over. Please~ let there be a new student *closes eyes*

*opens eyes* maybe an exchange student from Korea?? *O* actually I don't mind. As long as its a guy. A nice one who can play guitar and has great hair. And eyes and skin and is tall. pleeeease dear Lord! *prays*

#@?%$!!

2010-03-12T08:37:00.002-05:00

I am in a bad mood. Don't mess with me right now because I am in a really bad mood.

Greasy hair D: bad breath, bags under eyes, bed-head, thunder thighs and flabby... that's what I feel like. *Yawn* Nausea. I feel like I'm gonna throw.

So many things to do. Too many things to do. Supposed to be at school but I'm off-sick. I have a sore throat and a killer head-ache. Atm~ I'm painting because it calms me down. I'm listening to Lady Gaga and Jay Sean.

Later, I gotta record some lines.
- Suki Sugite Baka Mitai (duet)
- Massara Blue Jeans (HS)
- Dschinghas Khan (HS)
and a birthday song

Trying to find a song but my only options are buying it online. But I'm running out of online music download money D: I guess I'll just have to illegally download it then... no, I won't do that. I'm a good girl :D

Nevertheless, I still feel like shit today. I think I will go run on the treadmill after this or something. Dance. Yeah~

No!

2010-03-05T18:10:00.001-05:00

A horrible thing happened today.

I got a spot. On my cheek. it's small but it's there. I haven't had a spot in like, ages! I'm not kidding - this is a massive shock, horrible shock for me D:

Hey!

2010-03-05T17:59:00.003-05:00

I'm planning to upload dance videos xD I think I'm going to start with Bravo Bravo, because it's easy and then Shouganai Yume Oibito because I've already learnt it.

I've just watched some LunaCherry dance videos and I feel really inspired!! Her dancing is so great *O* when i try, DON'T compare haha.... because the contrast will be like woah. lol :P so just don't mentally compare, haii? lol ^_^

Outfits...hmm... i've got a dress similar to what the girls wore in Shouganai but it's a bit too off-white. And i can dress punk-rock-ish for Bravo Bravo, so that's fine.

Oh, and this is my latest cover. It's Momo no Hanabira, originally by Otsuka Ai. She's my favorite singer, you know.

I know the chorus is too quiet. I thought that it was fine when i was mixing but obviously not. Can't change it now D: i will probably re-do it some other time!

xxx

LOVE IS WONDERFUL~

2010-02-12T17:47:00.002-05:00

It's almost Valentine's Day, people! Just TWO DAYS AWAAAAY ;) aren't you as excited as i am??? :D

actually i'm not that excited :P

but anyways:

I've uploaded a new cover: Sakura Kiss by Chieko Kawabe and it's the first song to my Valentine's Day special songs~called "LOVE IS WONDERFUL".

Hoping you guys like it~!

xxxxx

K-Pop

2010-02-08T13:42:00.003-05:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE K-Pop!!!

Please watch my debut K-pop song :)

Sorry my pronounciation isn't brilliant and I sound like i have a blocked nose D:
However, I think my pitching is okay though! The high note somewhere in the middle of the song is funny xD. Haha.

ALSO~ this song is by SNSD NOT Kara!! HAHA LMAO. I'm SOOOO dumb. I've been thinking all this time that Honey (Perfect For You) is a song by Kara. Kara have done a song called "Honey" but it is NOT the same song.

So stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. Baka Miya xD

I wanna cover a Chinese song next ;) I'm thinking of doing Practical Joke by Ariel Lin ^^ I love that song~! Its so sweet. But Chinese songs are the hardest songs to cover if you don't speak Chinese and the pronounciation is pretty difficult if you're used to English and Japanese. Because they say stuff like "Xiah" as "Chiah". Something like that. I'm not Chinese so correct me if I'm wrong ;)

Japanese is the EASIEST foreign language to sing. In my opinion ^^.

xxxxx

LOVE~ I WANT YOUR LOVE

2010-02-07T17:53:00.006-05:00

OmGGGGG~ ahahaa I LOVE DBSK now!! Their music is so catchy. I love Wrong Number, Why Did I Fall in Love With You and Mirotic most. Mirotic is so...sexual-sounding, isn't it? Not that it's a bad thing. When it's sang by such DAMN! HOT guys, it's not so bad at all ^_^

*wiggles eyebrows* lol

They dance SO good as well :P no kidding, i'm always mesmerized by the dance steps. I would NEVER be able to dance like that. And i'm a dancer. Kind of. (well i cheerlead, so does that count as dancing??) lol.

So hot too :) Amazing abs... ahahahaaa... makes me feel faint *swoons*
lmao. i'm such a pervert

Hero (Jaejoong)'s the hottest though. (center)

I'd do ;)

LOL xD

I gotta remember

2010-02-06T17:27:00.001-05:00

Coming up: Aiko (AikoAki)'s birthday

13th March~

DON'T forget, people!!

Happy Birthday Mitsu~!

2010-02-06T17:06:00.003-05:00

WAAAA~! I've said this SO many times recently but... (haha, again!) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITSUKI!

(OPV: BigDnm01)

im not even kiding~ 18 is a WELL special age! It's one of the "big" ages, isn't it? Sweet 16, 18, 21 and 40 haha...

I've not even reached my sweet 16 yet~! can't wait though xD

Anyways~ I hope that Mitsu is having a great day :) partying and having fun~!! haha ^_^ happy 18th!!

Muchhh loves, Miya xxxxxxxxx

Nyannnn ;D

2010-02-05T15:54:00.001-05:00

Just realized... I have posted a lot of posts today. Ha~!

Excited~!

2010-02-05T13:43:00.002-05:00

OKAY EVERYBODY

I don't want you to forget so I'm reminding you all.
Tomorrow is a very special day!!

6th February 2010...
is the day that talented Youtube Japanese pop-singer and my cutie friend, Mitsuki (MitsukiUsagii) turns 18~!!! As you all should know, 18 is a reeeeally special age~! When you're 18, you can do almost ANYTHING!!

I'll do a special announcement tomorrow ^^. Along with her birthday song from me to Mitsuuu~~

Addicted!

2010-02-05T13:26:00.003-05:00

My new favorite singer is Ai Otsuka. I LOVE LOVE LOVE her songs. Well, I kind of prefer the songs with the piano in them more but she is still a great singer.

Ai Otsuka (大塚愛, Ōtsuka Ai) born September 9, 1982, is a Japanese pop singer-songwriter, composer, pianist and actress from Osaka, Osaka Prefecture, Japan. She is a popular artist on the avex trax label and is best-known for her 2003 hit Sakuranbo, which stayed in the Top 200 Oricon Weekly Singles Chart for 85 weeks.

(from Wikipedia)

She is so pretty and cute~!

Otsuka-san has been playing piano since the age of 4. That has totally encouraged me to continue with my piano playing. I play piano, y'know! Not very well though haha. I've only been playing since I was 10 years old, so only 5 years...

These are some of my favorite Otsuka Ai songs~

Kingyo Hanabi (Goldfish Fireworks)

Daisuki Da Yo (I Love You)

Momo no Hanabira (Peach Petal)

Amaenbo

Planetarium

There are more songs by Otsuka Ai that I like (such as Sakuranbo, PEACH!) but I can't be bothered to add anymore. Anyways this post is getting really long as well!!

OTSUKA AI ^^

Our Songs~ Buono

2010-02-05T13:08:00.002-05:00

Nee~
I am loving this song!!!

My favorite part is the guitar intro. It reminds me of another song but I can't think what.

(photo I found on crunchyroll.com)

The girls look really nice in this song. I totally love their outfits as well. They are dressed like a mixture of cute and punk rock. Punk rock-y colors (black, red, white), military style jackets and bows for the cute bit. Momoko's shirt says "I sure am a bitch"?? I heard that it was something like that. I'm trying to pause the video whenever I can see her so I can read the shirt. I'm like obsessed with finding out what this infamous shirt actually says!! haha~!

I do like Airi's shirt. It's got a bow on it and its cute. I want it!! haha ^^

I totally love the way all 3 of them sound. The song has a nice beat. Dance looks good so far but I wanna see the dance shot before I make a judgement~

Also ;) I love Miyabi's hair there. She has extensions! It looks really pretty~ (she is pretty!) but I still think that her short hair suits and compliments her face shape more.

Forever and Always

2010-02-05T12:45:00.003-05:00

"Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday when you caught my eye
We caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye and told me YOU LOVED ME."

That little extract is from the song "Forever and Always" by American country singer-songwriter and actress Taylor Swift. Wooooo~!

This song is one which I can really relate to :P except that for me~ it was a Friday instead of a Tuesday. Nothing happens on Tuesdays.

I really just adore Taylor Swift songs. She is so talented and pretty and beautiful!! Swift is like totally my idol.

The only thing is that she is like almost 6 ft tall which is unbelievably massive. I'm probably exaggerating but she is VERY tall. But nobody is perfect and I think that if you are as gorgeous as Taylor Swift then, you can get away with being so tall.

These Tears

2010-01-29T18:35:00.002-05:00

Don't tell me that isn't true
Don't tell me what I feel for you
Isn't there
Don't tell me that

When I gave you my heart
I never wanted it back
You'll always have a piece
and I feel better somehow
Knowing that we'll always be connected

Did I ever say what I think?
and did I ever let you know?

These tears that fall
down my face
These tears that fall
from my eyes
And you'll never know
These tears that fall
leaving tracks
These tears that I feel that you should know
Fall from me
Because we'll never be.

"I love you, J.A. so much"

Loving you

2010-01-29T18:12:00.004-05:00

Jeez. I am in such a bad mood! This is going to be the most negative post that you guys will ever read. Trust me.

Okay, well first... my calves hurt cos I've been over-cheerleading. Seriously, I'm not even kidding. I'm having to practise after-school and i feel like i'm working overtime D:

and I've been trying to download a music video for a groupdub and it just won't download. Talk about your annoyances. It stops at about 72% and I'm like sitting there, waiting and waiting...

GRR...

Plus, I'm feeling ever so stressed (!). Haha.

And this girl in this project I'm in, like, gives herself all the lines even though she couldn't sing on pitch to save her life. She's like all, "oh my voice is cute and hers is mature. let's keep it that way, yeah?". That is the stupidest pile of shit that I've ever heard. For GOD'S SAKE. Who does she think she is? Ayumi fucking Hamasaki??

I wonder who told her that she could sing. That is practically a sin. Encouraging people who have no chance. Poor girl! Makes me so angry though.

And yeah. I guess that I am a little bit (HA. a LITTLE bit? lol) jealous...! ;)

C-ute's new Single ~ "SHOCK"

2009-12-21T10:15:00.002-05:00

Okay I've just watched and listened to the PV of C-ute's 11th single~ "SHOCK".

The PV is okay, the girls sound good and the dance is nice. The clothes are cool as well. However, there's just one thing that I;m really not happy about.

Airi Suzuki gets ALL the solos. Even Maimi Yajima doesn't get solos in this single and she is the Leader. Why don't they just call C-ute; Airi Suzuki featuring C-ute. The other girls don't get a chance to show off their voices anymore. In my opinion, I think that Airi Suzuki is totally overrated. Her voice so irritates me now. It sounds like she's trying way too hard to sound happy and cute.

I mean, she is pretty (I suppose, aside those terrible teeth) and her voice is nice, but she shouldn't be given so many lines. Actually when I first discovered Hello Project, Airi Suzuki was my first idol (omg), because she was the first one I noticed (since she's always the center and lead singer). Now, she isn't. In Buono!, Suzuki is the center now. I don't like it. I preferred it when Momoko was center or Miyabi. I don't know why, but it doesn't look right with Suzuki-san as the lead.

Ever since Airi started getting almost all of the lines, I've started to slowly dislike her. I think she's becoming really over-rated now. It's true that Suzuki is very talented, and pretty, but its still unfair.

In C-ute, Maimi and Saki are the best dancers. Airi is an average "okay" dancer. She's not bad, but it's not that good either. I think Hello Project should put the best dancers at the front and the center, because for example, Saki Nakajima and Saki Shimizu are brilliant dancers but they hardly ever get solo lines. To make it more fair, they should put them at the front and the supposedly "best" singers (like Airi Suzuki and Reina Tanaka) at the back. Now that I mention it, i don't think that Reina Tanaka is a great singer either. Her singing is just so fake. She tries way too hard to be cute. It's obvious. I mean, she sounds different (and better) in First Kiss and Suki ni Naccha Ikenai Hito than she does in e.g. Nanchatte Renai and Resonant Blue. There's a video of her singing First Kiss live (way back) with Suzuki and Natsuyaki. Her voice was deeper and I liked it better like that. Sounds more natural and normal.

Why can't people just sing naturally? :3

Don't get me wrong; I used to absolutely adore Suzuki and Tanaka. They previously were my top two idols. Now my idols are Natsuyaki Miyabi, Kamei Eri, Nakajima Saki and Okai Chisato.

Yay! and Boo

2009-12-17T17:03:00.004-05:00

My old method of downloading Youtube videos and converting them to mpg format totally broke down because the converter WOULDN'T CONVERT THE VIDEOS. Talk about annoyances.

So I found a new method. Yay! Very happy

and now for the Boo...

I lost 2 subscribers. Fucking hell. What have I done??? D: I am not a happy fandubber -_-'
Also, listening back to my old fandubs (and recent ones too), I've noticed just how nasal my voice is. It's terrible. Really is. Nothing I do will relieve it of its nasal-ness. I cannot sing in a different way. I cannot make my voice go un-nasal.

And...

This other fandubber...she has more subscribers than me. I know, you'll be thinking, well it's because she's a better singer than you, doh! But NO. She can't even sing in tune. Her voice is flat and loud and bleeeehh.... I don't want to say who because that's rude and say anymore because...well, she's one of my friends. I suppose. In addition... people always say to her "I love your voice!" and "it's so pretty!" and "You sound awesome!", etc etc etc. It's like WTF?! C'mon people you KNOW that she sucks, you're all just too nice to say it. Unless...I'm the tone-deaf one. Am I deaf? Am I the deaf one here? Christ...

Oh wait. Unless everone thinks that I suck more than her. I, for one, am deeply offended.

Note.

2009-12-04T18:32:00.001-05:00

And did I mention how happy I was to hear that they had broken up?? YES :D

I need him so much.

Love

2009-12-04T18:13:00.002-05:00

"Love is the most unconditional feeling in the world. You do not even know when you start developing such feeling for someone. It may be the love at the first sight or a feeling developed out of gradual liking."

Love is a darned thing. It is so overrated. Except that...I'm afraid that I am falling in love with someone who I am SUPPOSED to be over.

Butterflies in my stomach. Sort of nauseous feeling as my stomach turns whenever I see him/think about him.
My heart stops (no kidding) whenever I see him or think about him.
I forget everything that I am saying if he walks past.
I can't think about anything else if he's near me.
I love being in his company.
I can't look away when we make eye contact.
I love it when he looks at me.
I dream about him practically every night.
(so cheesy) I write songs and they're mostly about him or based on him. Whether I realize it or not.

and endless more things, but they're all so cheesy and LAME, that I should probably stop. I'm ashamed to even write all of that stuff above. I just wonder if I'm in love with him, but what is love exactly? This guy though...he's amazing. Everything he does is so perfect to me, he can literally take my breath away.

*sighs dreamily* But the worst part is that I don't know how he feels about me. and I can't just ask him, either.

Once, in class, I was sitting opposite him, and in the middle of the lesson, his foot just brushed against mine and the weirdest thing happened. He started playing footsie with me. I'm sure he was aware of it. I mean, how could you rub and stroke your foot against someone else's, trapping it between your own feet, etc and NOT REALIZE?? All this was going on as the teacher was talking and, well, teaching. The guy (my guy, not the teacher lol) was looking at the teacher and appeared to be listening to him, but underneath the table... the game of footsie just went on.

When the lesson ended, he just walked out, like nothing had fucking happened! D:

That special look
One time, he looked at me in a way that I will never forget. A really soft, adoring look; he looked like he loved me and wanted me so bad. I could have seriously believed it. 5 seconds of heaven.

Super Junior ~ LOVE FEVER!!

2009-12-04T17:54:00.004-05:00

Oh my gosh, gosh gosh!! Have i mentioned how much I love Super Junior. I'm a new fan but a very BIG fan, nee!!! ^_^ Oh man, these guys are so cute and funny and talented! What more could a girl want?? :)

Kyuhyun!!! <33 He is really beautiful for a boy! Usually guys come as cute, hot or handsome, but this guy's really beautiful!! When I read that he was involved in a car accident and had the most injuries, I was like, ohhh nooo! D: Bu that was like ages ag, so hes recovered ^^

Han Geng ~ I first saw him in It's You, and well, he caught my eye ;)

Eyunhyuk!! Such an amazing dancer. So talented. Pretty boy :P

Donghae~~ Goooshhh xD I saw him in Super Girl, looking so cute :D

Siwon and Leetuek. Is it just me or do they look a bit similar??? I think Leetuek has dyed hair and Siwon has black, but...whatever. I think they're both hot xD

Ryeowook is really cute! Hes like, 25, but he looks so young and fresh-faced!! What a cutie. And his voice is very sweet.

Heechul~ kind of cute ^^ They make him look too girly-looking sometimes though hahaa ^^

Well, those are my favorites out of the group. I love them all and they're all mega-hot (something about oriental guys, especially Korean, Chinese & Japanese ones, are extremely attractive to me ^^). Hahaa, this is probably looking like a weird sort of post, but this is the kind of randomness that goes on inside that mad head of mine.

Help me!!!

2009-10-31T15:13:00.002-04:00

Call 911. I'm drowning in schoolwork.

Godammit, why do teachers have to give us with so much homework. For them, its absolute joy. It's like "Here, go knock yourself out on this assignment." What, do they think we actually enjoy it? No wait, don't tell me that its for my own good if I want to enter a respectable profession. I know, I know.

UPDATES!!

Because of all this work and the chaos presented upon me recently (its my own fault, i should have done it sooner), I'll be absent from Youtube and the internet (except in the case of schoolwork and essays. quote The Parents.). Not permenently. Of course, I'll be back (dont moan and groan guys lol ^^. C'mon clap!). I'll only be fully free and escape from all this crap and shit in the summer.

Sigh. Not fair. I sound like a sulky kid but like i give a fuck. Excusez moi!

Basically, I'll only be allowed on YT on WEEKENDS and Fridays. As for recording my lines for projects and groupdubs, that'll all be stalled. Sorry, guys. My lines are going to delayed as such. I'll of course definitely record them. I'm pretty sure what lines I have left.

Suki Ni Nacchi Ikenai Hito - Reina Tanaka
Uchuu Buono ~ Morning Musume Medley (Group Project) - Aika Mitsui
Kirai Suki Dai Kirai (Buono!) - Miyabi Natsuyaki
Kousui (MM concert dub) - Koharu Kusumi
Kawaii Merodi ~ Meguru Koi no Kisetsu (C-ute) - Saki Nakajima
Kawaii Garuuz ~ Take It Easy! - Momoko Tsugunaga
Kyandii ~ Hitorijime (v-u-den)
Saikou Project ~ Sweetie- Strawberry Pie (Mini Moni) - Tsuji Nozomi

As you can see (or read) I am totally bogged down in my own shit. Damn. SO BUSY!!!

Muchhh lovee x

Eeeep.

2009-10-30T14:55:00.000-04:00

Kyaaaa....

Goddamit, i cant stop thinking about him. He's in my head every second of every minute of every hour of every freakin' DAY! I'm going nuts, man. Am I crazy?

I was reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. Its a good book. Really descriptive. I've watched the movie, and personally, I prefer the book to the movie. There are just some things that you can't capture on film.

The storyline is just so brilliant. Its really imaginative. The characters are good too. So descriptive. I love Love. But i hate it too. It hurts, y'know? Aww, man! I wish I had my own Edward Cullen!

^_^

SCORE!

2009-10-26T17:30:00.002-04:00

Okay, I know what you must be thinking. God, here she goes again, talking about BOYS. again. I cant help it xD the male specimen (err...right?) are just soo fascinating. and did i ever mention, FRUSTRATING, too??

Anyways,

So I met this guy at this...party thing. Well, not really "meet", because we've already met, and our families are friends...He was nice to me, totally sweet, and 100% hot :D Dammit, he's so hot. Loool...he didn't recognise me at first. He recognised my brother but he was like, "Didn't he have a sister...?" and gestured with his hand, somewhere around waist-level. Yeah right. I'm not that small.

Then I sort of stood up and said, "Yeah, I'm here." and waved at him. He looked up and kind of blinked a lot then smiled. God bless him, the guy actually waved back. So cute. I'm in heaven, man. His voice is like, amazing. Not too deep, not too squeaky. Just perfectly right ^_^

Okay, so i spoke like, one sentence to him (two, if you count the "yeah, im here" thing, and three if the smiling and eye contact count???) but im totally in love now ^_^. He made eye contact with me a lot and also kept blinking (a lot). So does that mean that he held some sort of attraction towards me? :D please be so.

Oh, and a funny thing.

My mom's just got his e-mail for me. He told me I could phone, mail or contact him if i wanted to. So I've got his e-mail, via mom, from his mom. My Mom thinks it's for "educational" purpose only. And told me not to give it to any of my friends. I told her, "Why would I? Besides, they dont even know who he is." What a good actress i am :)

That guy

2009-10-02T14:30:00.003-04:00

It's not been that long. Broken up, tears have been shed (believe me) and now I'm over it. Oh yeah. It's like going over a rainbow. Now the world of single-ness welcomes me. I feel so...free? HAHA.

Anyways, there is this guy. WHY WON'T HE FREAKING NOTICE ME?! I wanna slap him so hard he'd end up in the Ming Dynasty. quote. lol xDD
but seriously. that's how i feel right now.

OOH. and there are celebrity guys OF COURSE. But it's not like I'm ever gonna meet them, right? :D

Annoyed.

2009-10-02T14:22:00.002-04:00

I am extremely annoyed and irritated.

Irritated because I had like 4 hours sleep as I was up all freaking night writing some dumb 1000 word essay. And annoyed because of many MANY things in life. Let's start with one.

COMPUTER: WHY CANT IT GO FASTER?!
INTERNET: STOP CRASHING, goddammit.
THAT BOY: NOTICE ME ALREADY!!

and etc etc etc

However, ATM, its this one thing. This project, right. How come I never get any solo lines anymore? Is this their petty way of trying to tell me that I flipping suck? Why don't they just say it to my fucking face already?! Cowards much? Tsch. I'm SEROUSLY considering graduating from this project. I mean, it's not like we have that many subscribers. Its DUMB. Spare me some sympathy people!!

I pass the auditions but I dont get any solos? it's like WTF? and i seriously suspect that the leader is giving all her friends the solos. It's not like they're all that amazing anyway. Jesus fucking Christ, I'm so MAD. I hate this. This really sucks. I'd like to tell this fucking project leader this, but she and the co-leader are really intimidating, and even from the safety of my computer screen, I cant say it to these people. I mean, they're older, experienced, etc. like WAY more. You can just tell it from the way they talk.

Rant, rant, rant.

CUUUUTE! =3

2009-09-27T10:36:00.002-04:00

OMIGOSH OMIGOSH OMIGOOOOSH

I was watching Mayonaka no Shadow Boy last night on YT. A Hey! Say! Jump song. My mom told me my cousin absolutely adores them. She's only like, twelve. But now I undershand why she loves them so much.

I am dying in cute-ness. Is that not what you can call The Ultimate Kawaii-ness?? I can't believe that it's taken me 15 years to discover them!! I mean, I only entered the world of J-Pop like, 3 years ago.

eeeep. There is one really cute one that caught my eye. Ryosuke Yamada. I mean, LOOK AT HIM :D

He's 16... born on May 9th 1993. LOL. i'm such a STALKER!
The face of a freaking angel *swoons* In Mayonaka no Shadow Boy~ he looks really hot ^_^ so cute.

and Yuto Nakajima :) Hey, is this guy related to Saki Nakajima? Hmm...

Kota Yabu is really cute too! Eeeep :D

Eek!

2009-08-23T15:50:00.003-04:00

I don't know what to do...got lots of stuff to do...dying of boredom and tired-ness...aaargh!

also i need a shower *sniffs* and a load of stuff to record. Just can't be bothered. When did i become so darn lazy??

Forget to mention ♥♥♥

2009-08-22T13:00:00.002-04:00

Omg omg omg. Forget what I said before about love and whatnot.

I went to H&M [which is like an awesome shop] and I saw this guy, and he was like so...hot. He looks like a rockstar. Dresses like a rockstar. Dark hair, tall and so hot. *screams* Gahhhh....man, I could faint. He looked as i passed and when i paid for what i bought [this cute little wool beanie] we had this amazing eye contact and i was just like ohmigosh.

Actually he works in H&M so I could just "pop" in every so often to see him. I'm such a stalker girl lol. Groupie!!! I also found out what his name is. Benjamin!! *faints* he looks like a shy king of guy as well xD which is awesome cos i love shy guys :D

I'm gonna need to find out more about him...like, whether he has a girlfriend, or if he's gay... that kind of thing.

What do you do...?

2009-08-22T12:36:00.002-04:00

What do you do when you're bored? What do you do when you have absolutely nothing but everything to do? What do you do when you have that instinctive gut feeling that the love of your life is out there doing what he shouldn't be with other girls? Call it girls' instuition.

Man, i know i must sound lonely, lovestruck and probably like a jealous fishwife! But I'm just a girl. Can't help it :P Just that one thing on my mind. It's like he's permanently imprinted in my head.

Hey. Does it ever annoy you when some people hold groupdub auditions or stuff like that, and thn self-cast themselves as one of the lead roles, even though they're a really...umm...horrible singer? Like, tone-deaf? What makes them think that they're good for that role anyway

Ahhha...I need to find myself a new hobby. I can't sit next to the phone all day, waiting for him to call. Why does he have to call when i'm always busy? I know the time zone is different but wtf.

What's love? Define love.
"a strong positive emotion of regard and affection"
"a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction"

When you're in love, how are you supposed to feel? Like, when your legs turn to jelly whenever you see them and around them, you always talk crap? When your eyes meet, you feel like you can't look away and then you get "that feeling".

Confused!!

Can't be bothered

2009-08-14T12:33:00.003-04:00

I'm in a lazy state of mind. I can't be bothered to do anything. Really.

I have like, a hundred lines to record for my projects and stuff, a hundred songs to learn and all this work to do, but i feel so sleepy all the time. I'm gonna have to get my lazy ass down sometime. School's gonna open soon...

*sigh*

Also, there are some people i don't want to see. No names mentioned. I really don't want to see them. I'm dying inside everytime...

on the bright side, i'm gonna get my haircut. Nothing too fancy, of course. Just having my fringe trimmed and my layers re-cut. I'm thinking having them [the layers] short nearer the top and then suddenly long, and have my fringe framing my face. I dont know. We'll see.

I'll maybe post a photo up when it's done, but i doubt that it would look any different.

xoxo ~

Some people are not nice

2009-08-11T17:13:00.002-04:00

You know what I don't get? Why some people are just not nice. It's like they don't have a nice bone in their hateful little bodies. Or fat bodies in some cases. Slap me on the head and call me silly, but if someone's done nothing to annoy you directly, meaning like it was none of their business, or whatever, why should they continue to annoy you? Or carry on swearing like a stupid ass?

Hm. Get a marker and label me stupid but some things i will never understand.

Stuck in my head~
This particular song: The Way I Loved You by 19 year old Taylor Swift from Nashville in Tennesee, is really stuck in my head. Like practically welded, moulded and shaped in my darn head. Idk why.

Also, i feel like I can realy relate to it...
"he can't see the smile I'm faking and my heart's not breaking. cos im not feeling anything at all..."

Jeez, I'm realy very evil...

You know, Taylor Swift is so pretty, I think. Wish i looked like her. *sigh*
I need Christian. I also need to pee. Well, gotta go. Bye bye

Take It Easy!

2009-08-07T05:06:00.002-04:00

Wow O_O THREE posts in one morning. Gotta be a record for me.

Anyway, on a happier note, Buono's new single Take It Easy, the PV is out! WOO

Airi Suzuki is the center in this song. Momoko loses her bag! Aww poor Momo! And ZOMG! Miyabi is so freaking pretty! I love her hair color too.

Gpsh, they're all so gorgeous. And I love their outfits. Ha :P

Early Bird

2009-08-07T04:55:00.002-04:00

Oh yes, the post below is the reason why I am awake at like 4am when really I should be catching on my beauty sleep. Lol :)

Confused...

2009-08-07T04:33:00.005-04:00

Oh goshhh....I don't know what to do!!

peace!

God, I feel so mean but I've recently just met up with this guy I used to like months ago, and now I'm starting to like him again. A little bit...

And then I remember Jamie and I fall head over heels again. GODDD I'm so indecisive.

One minute I like Christian and then when I see Jamie and he does that smile thing of his, runs his hands through his hair and laughs - GOD THAT CUTE LAUGH OF HIS! I can't decide and I feel so...greedy! Lol dear lord, thank the lord I feel so...emotional. Normally I don't feel anything because I'm a heartless soul (ha, quote Nadiyah!).

Sorry people, this is going to be a really dreary post LOL :P

I love Jamie, I really do ^^ Eurghh I hate Christian for doing to this to me...lol. Man, he's such a charmer!

Gossip Girl :)

2009-08-03T11:54:00.004-04:00

Jeez, Gossip Girl is really addictive. The book series is really gossipy and c'mon who doesn't like gossip. When someone gossips about you, in a bad OR good way, you'd like it. Cos face it, you're an interesting element if you're gonna be talked about :P

But then you'd feel really self-conscious too.

Are girls gossipy-er than guys? Do we gossip more than guys? Hmm...in different ways I think. Girls are more bitchy and sneaky before back-stabbing but guys are more in-your-face about it.

Just some things I wonder in my free time. Lol :D

Grr...and this girl i recently met, she's so freaking annoying. She has this massive problem with me and it's like, what's up your freakin' arsehole? Whatever the hell I did, it didn't concern her. She just butt into something that was so not her business and then starts acting like it was all for her to deal. Bitch. Obviously, I was trying to be nice and jokey about it, just to get her to warm up to me. But NOO, she just keeps going on and freaking ON. She just can't let it drop. Can't you just get the fuck over it already, you stupid bitch? Yeah, and she calls me immature. Stupid fuckface.

Sorry i'm having a mini-rant there. Excusez-moi for my language.
I just couldn't resist letting all that anger out. If the BITCH ever reads this... *evil smile*

You know, cheerleading practice is getting harder and harder. Them Head Cheerleaders are so annoying! Why the hell are they so freaking perky all the time?? In all honesty, u kind of have to be perky. I mean, who'd look at a cheerleader when they're putting their sulky faces on?

Not to mention, the super-short and tight uniforms. Still, u can't dance and basically cheerlead if you're wearing a nun's outfit though, can you? :D

And of course, there are those really snobby cheerleaders as well. The really made-up, blonde ones who think they're all that. I can name quite a few to start of with...

Anyway, I'm kind of hungry. Craving Chinese takeaway. Yummy. So gotta dash.

XOXO

So~o

2009-07-30T12:28:00.004-04:00

I'm going to busy for a while. Got lots of lines to hand in and also 3 duets lined up ^^

In addition, I bit my index finger nail right down. Now it hurts :(
I bite my nails in tension, when I get nervous. Only some nails though. The other nails (apart from the 2 indexes) are still intact.

It's not a nice habit tbh :3

I think I'm gonna wear fake nails to cover them up. But then they'd stand out. Hm. If I wear false nails...
my real nails look false now. I've just had them manicured and man, they look awesome.
I love manicures...

Take It Easy ~Buono and SchoolDays ~ Guardians4

2009-07-24T15:29:00.006-04:00

Oh and I nearly forgot.

Did you guys hear about Buono!'s next single?

Take It Easy!

Preview ^^

Sounds very summery and I find it relaxing :) I love the way they say TAKE IT EASJII
Also everybody's favorite and ichiban kawaii Momoko Tsungunaga takes the lead in this song!

AND.

Guardians4 - School Days

I love this new unit! The height variation is awesome.
and this song totally reminds me of school ^^ I see chalkboards and graduation caps.

KYANDII~

2009-07-24T15:12:00.003-04:00

Okay, so Aiko and I have started a new group called Kyandii (meaning "candy") and now we have a new addition~ MitsukiUsagi. Her voice is very cute, like Momoko Tsungunaga's.

ha. the second one is funny ^_^. Sniffing the camera.
DARN. She's so damn cute. I wish I was as cute as Momoko. Life would be sweeeeeet.

I'm having a Momo day. I feel small and cute. Well - I AM short :3
but I feel sweet and cute today :)

Usually, I'm kind of jaded and hard-edged. Sort of snappy in a bite-your-head-off kind of way. Because that's what I'm like :D

Anyway, I'm going to Central Park to meet Jamie :)

Can't sleep.

2009-07-24T05:18:00.001-04:00

Okay so it is like 5:20am in NY right now.
*yawn* and i can't sleep, dammit!

So I thought that I should make a blog. See how suckish I can really make it (:
and THIS IS MY FIRST POST. WOO.

I've been wondering pointless things, such as what I should have for breakfast and whether or not I should take a shower AND wash my hair. Wait - that's kind of important.

Hmm...now I'm hungry.
Eh, I'm just gonna go and try to sleep. My mom will freakin kill me if she catches on my iBook this early.