You've got your way of speaking

If you're wondering what the hell I'm doing up so early in the morning, it's because I just randomly woke up and now I can't get back to sleep. Really annoying! So I thought I might just write a little something here :)

I was just reading some websites about 'double eyelids' and the 'double eyelid surgery'. The surgery itself sounds really painful and post-surgery sounds...uncomfortable. Your lids will be sore for a few weeks (this is as expected) and discolored for MONTHS?! What if you end up going blind or something?? You know, it's at times like these that I'm super glad I have double lids. Sure mine aren't exactly how I want them. I've frequently considered surgery in the past but after reading this...NO MORE NO WAY! I just...can't.

I was talking to Will the other day. Hehe. We had a history test and we were just going through facts. However, Alex was there and I seriously love the dude, but I kind of wanted him to GTFO. Haha, no that's cruel. It was more like, 'Please leave'.

But then something happened! I turned to say something to Alex when I noticed Will looking at me so I looked at him. It must have looked really weird to Alex though, haha. I'm sat there, talking to him but looking at someone else. I couldn't look away; his eyes are really beautiful. This turquoise-green color? Just mesmerizing! This 'eye-connection' was like, 5seconds long, which isn't that long but it's a long time to be staring at someone.

Oh God, I can't forget those eyes! I also noticed his pupils being really dark and prominent. They kind of appeared to be slightly dilated or something? I read somewhere that dilated pupils mean that you're attracted to someone, so I hope to God that he's noticed me. However, another thought has just popped into my mind. He could have been stoned. Will does pot? So his pupils could have been dilated because of that. Jeez.

So, now I'm starting to feel a little sleepier. Guess I'll write more later ;)

Losing my mind when I saw you here

Been a while since my last entry! Sorry, I've been so busy with things, mostly school... *BIGSIGH* But the good news is that around mid-June, I'll be free again YAY!

Mitsucchi asked to do this song with me: Ma Boy by SISTA19. I love it now, it's a really cool song. I'm excited to hear how it will turn out :) There's also these really cool rap bits, one big one in Korean and a little one in English at the start. I can't wait to try them out. I know that Mits will sound lovely cute and pretty as GODDAMN FREAKIN ALWAYS!! haha :)

Oh and I've started crushing on this guy. He's called Will and he's so beautiful! He's got perfect pale skin and the cutest curly mop-like hair ever, like a doll. Of course he's taller than me, EVERYBODY'S TALLER THAN ME. And oh my gosh, his eyes are the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen!! They're a turquoise kind of color, and they sparkle. I swear, they SPARKLE!

Ohh I sound like SUCH a girl! Lol. I've only talked to Will a couple of times before in the past, but that was before I started noticing him (how could I have not noticed him before?!) He's friends with Nick, so maybe I can get Nick to help me. Nick and I, we both don't want to ruin our friendship so we've decided to not let anything happen and move on.

Anyway, back to Will. Oh I really want to get to know him properly! I can't say if he's worth it or if I'm actually serious about himbecause I don't really know him that well. Guess I'm only majorly attracted to him then. I want to know if his personality is nice, and that he's one of the good guys, not a jerk. Only thing is, he's kind of a stoner. Not that there's anything wrong with that. It's just that if we did happen, I'm not too sure that my parents would approve...OH WELL. It's not like I listen to them anyway, right?

Run baby run

Oh my God. I really want to go to Hong Kong. I've just been looking at photos of my aunt's vacation to HK and Christ, it looks amazing!! I HAVE to go. It looks especially beautiful at night. Kind of reminds me of NY but way more exotic because it's CHINA!!

I'm actually considering going just before i head off to college. Like, the summer vacation of 2012? I'll be 18 then so I will be old enough. Me and Katy can go. Her parents will probs be okay with it, since they're from Hong Kong and Katy speaks Cantonese so she'll totally be savvy. Haha. But she's not fluent so...

And then there's the money issue. How expensive will it be? Definitely at least $2000 if we go for a week especially in summer as it's the peak season. Hmm. And what if we run out of money or something?? Disaster!! But it's Hong Kong!

I soooo want to shop there though. Haha I am SUCH a girl! HK do really good designer fakes, don't they?

Like it or love it or leave it

Isn't jealousy a darned thing? It is definitely not my best friend. I hate it when I get all green-eyed. Speaking of which, green eyes are really beautiful, I love green eyes but only when they're in terms of eye color and not jealousy. Haha.

Oh god. I got a C in Biology and a C in Chemistry for this test and now my parents, especially my mom, keeps going ON about it. Can't they just let it go already? It's not like I'm destined to board the C-grade ship.

And about this Nick problem, I think I'm going to let it go. I really can't be bothered with him and I am soooo not going to wait for him to grow up and be a man! Lol. But seriously, I think I've wasted enough time on him (and you guys have wasted enough time reading about him lol). So now I will focus on things that truly matter. Shopping. Just kidding :) I mean school *yawn*

I've gone off Vampire Diaries and recently I've become obsessed with Gossip Girl again. I've only gone and downloaded the entire first season and part of the second. I know I'll get sick of it and eventually drift back to Vampire Diaries. It's a vicious cycle, I swear!

All my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace

I haven't been feeling like myself recently. Is it bad that all i need is him? And by him, I mean Nick. Its really bad because I actually feel like shit and depressed because I feel so lost. I seriously don't know what to do. I think I should tell him how I feel. If he's my friend...he deserves the right to know. I'm so scared that I'm falling in love with him. I'm not kidding. This is serious. And I'm really afraid that our friendship will be ruined because he doesn't feel the same way. I only wish I could stop myself from falling so hard.

I don't know how he feels towards me because we never have massive heart to hearts about feelings. Never. Even though he's my best guy friend. I don't know why but I think we both feel this big awkwardness hanging in the air whenever we mention 'feelings'. He's really hard to read sometimes. I heard a rumour a while back that he liked me and Rina told me she overheard that one of his friends saying, 'you like her, don't you?' and referring to me, but idk. It could be and it might not be.

I know that life isn't supposed to be easy but I really wish that it was sometimes.

One heart to break

I am having the worst day EVER. Like, ever.

I got out of school early because I went to the nurse's office and told her I wasn't feeling so good. She felt my forehead and said I had no temperature so I knew that I had to turn to more drastic measures. So I went into the toilet and threw up. Made myself threw up. That's bad, I know. I'm not bulimic though, I swear. I've never made myself throw up before, this is the first time. And may I just say right now that I WILL NEVER EVER DO IT AGAIN.

I just feel like absolute shit today. I just - I thought I got over Nick over Christmas break. It was nice to just get away but now? I think I'm falling for him again. AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! I can't stop think about him. See? It sounds so lame. This is so freaking disgusting. I hate this sick, soppy feeling. GRRR. I mean, it's not like he's the most attractive person in the entire world. He's not pretty like Paul Wesley, or sexy like Ian Somerhalder. Or, beautiful and godlike like Jamie. But he is my friend. The friend that I'm scared of falling in love with. Well, love is a bit of a strong word, so let's call it a crush. How middle-school of me, right? XD

My iPhone has broke. I dropped it in a mug of coffee. I'm awesome. Oh but I'm so dead when my mom finds out. She's gonna freaking kill me. Haha XD Maybe I can hide it from her. Yeah, sure I can ;)

One chance to keep from falling...

I am a total Vampire Diaries geek. LOOOL.

I got hooked onto it a couple of months or so back and because I got into it so late into the series, I missed the entire first season and the first 7 episodes of the second season. Well actually, I watched Miss Mystic Falls (the 19th episode of season one) and didn't get it, so I didn't watch the rest of it. But then I remembered sometime later and curiosity drew me in to watch it again. So I caught the 7th episode of season two (Masquerade) and then I kept watching the rest of it from then on :)

But obviously I didn't really understand because I had missed the entire first season (except the 19th one haha) so my dad got me the season one DVD for Christmas so I've been catching up like the geek that I am haha :3 so now I understand! *GEEK*

Now all I need is to catch up on the first 7 episodes of season two! I've bought The Return episode (2x01) off iTunes so I've watched it, saw the return of Katherine, saw John Gilbert leav (for now, presumably), saw Jeremy die and come back to life again and witnessed (omg) Damon's feelings come out! Aw.

Right now, I'm watching Bad Moon Rising (2x03). I've JUST finished watching Brave New World (2x02) and Caroline's a vampire after being smothered with a pillow by Katherine and having Damon's blood in her system at her time of death...

Wow xD This is a post dedicated to me and me watching Vampire Diaries haha. GEEEEEK :P