Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you

Today has been very eventful for me. For starters, Will started talking to me! YAY! But on the negative side, I was so nervous, I barely said anything back. This is bad because you see, when I don't smile, I look like I'm glaring. So he must think I'm a stone-cold evil psychobitch or something haha! Oh well. Also, I think he might think I have a thing going on with Alex because he's seen us two hanging out together alone a lot. What? Can't two friends who feel absolutely nothing for each other chill?

So Will asked me if my hair was naturally straight. I nodded. That was it. LOL. Well, I kept noticing him glancing at me and shit. Eh. Who am I kidding? I don't even like the guy much. He's alright. Good looking stoner. But has an annoying voice haha.

I heard some very interesting rumours about me. Apparently, I am currently dating Rafael. He's one of my new close friends. Never noticed him before but I'm in his Biology class. I thought this so-called little piece of truth was hilarious because I am so NOT dating Rafael. We're just friends. But it's so funny.

Oh! I'm going to London as part of a school trip in mid-July! Only for like, 3 days though. Hope the weather is nice!!

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?

I love how Taylor Swift's songs are so easy to relate to. And how they are so realistic! Many songs nowadays are all about love, sex and drugs, but Taylor's are so cute and innocent. Very teenager-like. She is totally my all-time celebrity idol.

It's funny how I freeze up and get all shy around Will. People say that I am really bubbly and perky. It's because he's so beautiful and perfect. I just wish his personality was as perfect. I've been told that he's really funny but his sarcasm can often come across as rude and insensitive. And that although he's good-looking, he would make a really bad boyfriend. It's such a shame; to let all that beauty go to waste. Only thing is, as gorgeous as he is, I personally don't think we'd go together very well because he's insensitive and sarcastic, whilst I am demanding and very sensitive. But we're both really impatient and cynical. So...actually, I don't know HAHA.

I did something rebellious a few days ago. I smoked. o_O!! Lol, actually it's not even that bad. Or rebellious. Though my parents would kill me if they found out.

It doesn't taste that bad, actually. The reason why I'm so surprised is because I hate the smell of it. It always gives me a headache and nausea. It pretty much tastes like how it smells but in your mouth, it's not so bad. Kind of hot but in a nice way (personally).

Also, I think my singing voice has deepened LOL. Like, gone huskier or something. It could because of that cold I got about a week or so ago. I recovered a couple of days ago and that horrible cough has majorly cleared up but it's lingering. I wonder if it was the presence of the cough that made my voice break!!
XD

Love me, hate me

I watched Prince of Persia and Donnie Darko last night, and I can safely admit that I have fallen in love with Jake Gyllenhaal. Like, completely. Of course I knew who he was (like, who doesn't?!) but I'd never found him that attractive. Until I watched Prince of Persia and Gyllenhaal talking in that delicious English accent was just...oh my GOD. So then I watched Donnie Darko (have watched this before, and previously thought he was just a weird character) and realized what a cutie he was 10 years ago! If he was my age and went to my high school, Christ, that boy would never be short of a date to the prom or whatever.

Now, is it just me or does Jake Gyllenhaal look slightly stoned sometimes? Or...all the time. Eh, it's probably just me. But yeah, the point is, I think he has a natural stoner face. And because of recent events (the beautiful Will), I've suddenly developed a taste for stoner boys.

By the way, have I mentioned that I've purchased my very first pair of circle lenses? They arrived like, 2 days ago. Jeez, I had a hard time concealing them from my mom. My dad doesn't give a shit but my mom...GOD that woman has the eyes of a hawk, I swear! When it arrived in the mail, I ripped a huge bright orange sticker from the back of the package (small, thank goodness) that said in big black letters, CIRCLE LENSES. Then I raced upstairs to hide it in my wardrobe. I was slughtly surprised bug greatly relieved that my mom didn't ask me what the package was, but the following day, sure enough, I heard those dreaded words, "So what was in the package?"

Gulp.

I said jewelry so smoothly that even I couldn't tell that I was lying! Wow, I am getting good. Not that it's anything I'm actually proud of. Lying is BAD, ya hear me?!

Anyways, maybe I'll post some photos later.

You can stand under my umbrella~

I want a lot of things but do you know what I really want? I want a wool coat with a furry hood. I know that it's summer and winter's a long way away but I've just always wanted a coat with a fur lined hood!! My mom's going to kill me because I've found the perfect one and I'm planning on buying it next weekend with her credit card. She's gonna freak because if I stop and think, I actually do already have numerous coats and besides, it's summer! But I really want it...!

I'm ill. It sucks because I've lost my voice. Hopefully my throat should heal and I'll be better by next week because I'm planning on recording some lines then. Bleurgh!

One thing I really hate is prejudice. And stereotypes and racism. Okay, that's 3 things but whatever. I saw some things on the internet - stuff like, "Why do Chinese people have small eyes and flat faces". By Chinese, they mean Asian people. That's really stereotypical and narrow-minded! Ignorant bastards. Sorry. Not ALL Asians have small eyes and "flat faces". Like, what does "small" really mean anyway? Limited in size? One person might think an object is small whilst another would disagree and say that it is big.

I'm really pissed off today for some reason. I think it's almost that time of the month...!

Gee - IU (ver) lyrics

I love IU's version of this song. So I pieced together the lyrics that she sang. It was...hard (for me, anyway) because I wasn't sure what she was saying.


Neomuneomu meotjyeo nuni nuni busyeo
Cheotnune banhaesseo tteollineun geol
Gee gee gee baby baby 
Gee gee gee baby baby

Oh neomu bukkeureowo chyeodabol su eobseo
Sumeul mot swigesseo sujubeun geol
Gee gee gee baby baby
Gee gee gee baby baby

Eotteoke hajyo 
Tteollineun naneun
Molla molla molla
Molla mollahamyeo maeil geudaeman geurijyo

Chinhan chingudeureun malhajyo
Jeongmal neoneun jeongmal motmallyeo
babo geuraeyo geudael boneun nan

Neomu banjjak banjjak nunibusyeo No No No
Neomu kkamjjak kkamjjak nollan naneun Oh Oh Oh
Neomu jjaritjjarit momi tteollyeo Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee
Jeojeun nunbit Oh Yeah joheun hyanggi Oh Yeah Yeah Yeah

Translation:

You're so so handsome
My eyes my eyes are blinded
I was captured from first glance, I'm trembling
(Gee gee gee baby baby)
(Gee gee gee baby baby)

Oh I feel so embarrassed
I can't look at you
I can't breathe because I feel shy
(Gee gee gee baby baby)
(Gee gee gee baby baby)

What should I do?
About my trembling heart
Don't know, don't know, don't know
I don't know why but every day I long for only you

My close friends tell me
That I'm really a helpless fool
Yes as I look at you

So bright so bright My eyes are blinded no no no
So surprised surprised I'm shocked oh oh oh
So exciting exciting, my body is trembling gee gee gee gee gee
Oh glittering eyes (oh yeah) Oh sweet aroma (oh yeah yeah yeah)

LOL VERY inaccurate translation. I apologize because I can't speak a word of Korean, nor am I Korean. All I did was piece together the English teanslation of Gee in line to what IU was singing :)

Gosh I love this song!

You've got your way of speaking

If you're wondering what the hell I'm doing up so early in the morning, it's because I just randomly woke up and now I can't get back to sleep. Really annoying! So I thought I might just write a little something here :)

I was just reading some websites about 'double eyelids' and the 'double eyelid surgery'. The surgery itself sounds really painful and post-surgery sounds...uncomfortable. Your lids will be sore for a few weeks (this is as expected) and discolored for MONTHS?! What if you end up going blind or something?? You know, it's at times like these that I'm super glad I have double lids. Sure mine aren't exactly how I want them. I've frequently considered surgery in the past but after reading this...NO MORE NO WAY! I just...can't.

I was talking to Will the other day. Hehe. We had a history test and we were just going through facts. However, Alex was there and I seriously love the dude, but I kind of wanted him to GTFO. Haha, no that's cruel. It was more like, 'Please leave'.

But then something happened! I turned to say something to Alex when I noticed Will looking at me so I looked at him. It must have looked really weird to Alex though, haha. I'm sat there, talking to him but looking at someone else. I couldn't look away; his eyes are really beautiful. This turquoise-green color? Just mesmerizing! This 'eye-connection' was like, 5seconds long, which isn't that long but it's a long time to be staring at someone.

Oh God, I can't forget those eyes! I also noticed his pupils being really dark and prominent. They kind of appeared to be slightly dilated or something? I read somewhere that dilated pupils mean that you're attracted to someone, so I hope to God that he's noticed me. However, another thought has just popped into my mind. He could have been stoned. Will does pot? So his pupils could have been dilated because of that. Jeez.

So, now I'm starting to feel a little sleepier. Guess I'll write more later ;)

Losing my mind when I saw you here

Been a while since my last entry! Sorry, I've been so busy with things, mostly school... *BIGSIGH* But the good news is that around mid-June, I'll be free again YAY!

Mitsucchi asked to do this song with me: Ma Boy by SISTA19. I love it now, it's a really cool song. I'm excited to hear how it will turn out :) There's also these really cool rap bits, one big one in Korean and a little one in English at the start. I can't wait to try them out. I know that Mits will sound lovely cute and pretty as GODDAMN FREAKIN ALWAYS!! haha :)

Oh and I've started crushing on this guy. He's called Will and he's so beautiful! He's got perfect pale skin and the cutest curly mop-like hair ever, like a doll. Of course he's taller than me, EVERYBODY'S TALLER THAN ME. And oh my gosh, his eyes are the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen!! They're a turquoise kind of color, and they sparkle. I swear, they SPARKLE!

Ohh I sound like SUCH a girl! Lol. I've only talked to Will a couple of times before in the past, but that was before I started noticing him (how could I have not noticed him before?!) He's friends with Nick, so maybe I can get Nick to help me. Nick and I, we both don't want to ruin our friendship so we've decided to not let anything happen and move on.

Anyway, back to Will. Oh I really want to get to know him properly! I can't say if he's worth it or if I'm actually serious about himbecause I don't really know him that well. Guess I'm only majorly attracted to him then. I want to know if his personality is nice, and that he's one of the good guys, not a jerk. Only thing is, he's kind of a stoner. Not that there's anything wrong with that. It's just that if we did happen, I'm not too sure that my parents would approve...OH WELL. It's not like I listen to them anyway, right?