Did you forget?

Three things have happened to me recently. I feel like I should vent out my feelings and emotions now because it's not "emotionally healthy" to bottle up your feelings.

I think I have finally managed to build a bridge and get over Jamie. It's about time. That's the only good news so far.

I am afraid that I am losing contact with one of my friends. She's one of closest friends, I've known her as long as I've known Katy - so we've been friends since like, 6th grade or something. Ever since the start of this year, ever since the start of 11th grade, Nareena seems...different. She seems like she wants to be part of the "popular" crowd. She never has time for the rest of us anymore. And even when she does, she still doesn't act like herself. Nareena's constantly acting like someone's about to take her photo and put it in a tabloid or something. It's like, god, you don't have to be on show all the time.

I'm not sure if I want to make an effort to talk to her now. The rest of our friends, they're still making an attempt, but I feel some "frostiness" radiating from Nareena now. Like, there's a giant ice wall between her and us. I really don't know how to explain it. I should really see how it goes now. But at the moment, I feel like I don't want to be friends with her anymore, if she's going to change like that.

Changing...for the better? or for the worse?

I'm really so very hopeless. I'm such an hopeless case. I'm so much of a hopeless case that, I think I'm falling for one of my friends. No. No. It's a guy friend. LOL. xD I think he might be one of the reasons that I'm over Jamie. It's better...and worse in a way.

Why do boys always act different when they're with their friends? Is it because they want to seem "cool"? It's so not cool. Someone should tell them that. I will. He...Nick...I love it when his friends arent around because he's so much better to be with when they're not there. It's not like he's terribly when he's with them, it's just that... Nick always acts totally childish and immature with them. I want to tell him that I like him, but I'm afraid that it'll ruin our friendship.

He's in my homeroom. We also have Chemistry together. So I pretty much see him every single day. Today, he and his friend walked in late to class. I won't lie. My heart actually jumped when I saw him walk into the classroom. But I didn't look at him because I was too busy filing my nails. Not that I wasn't watching him from the corner of my eye. Then I heard Nick approach my table but his friend wanted to sit on some table on the other side of the room because one of their other friends was sitting there. And then they had a small argument over where to sit. Because I was totally listening whilst filing my nails. Nick was like, "No, let's just sit here," (in my head, I was like YES, PLEASE SIT HERE) and his friend was all, "No we're going over there". And then eventually they sat on the other side of the classroom. So I was totally cursing Alex in my head the whole lesson.

oh my. I am so...wicked xD I wish that Alex would suddenly fall ill and be off for the next couple of weeks.

And all I can say -

Annoying Girl - you know who I mean. The one who thinks she's gorgeous and smart and every boy is in love with her. She shouts, "Me, me, me!" and waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question. She's the most self-righteous person in the room, but she's insecure about appearing too self-righteous, so she giggles a lot and acts stupid to hide her supposed genius. And she's the loudest, messiesr drunk you've ever seen. Without her friends, she'd pass out in a puddle of sick on the bathroom floor or wind up going home with some sleazy older guy. But her friends always seem to take pity on her, and the next day she's bouncier thanever, smiling like nothing happened.

The thing about Annoying Girl is, whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us. That's why we love to hate her so much. She's our worst nightmare. I mean, how many times have you wanted to wave your hand in the air when you knew the answer, only stopping yourself because you didn't want to look like an idiot? And how many times have you wanted to just sit down in a boy's lap and start kissing him but didn't for fear he's laugh in your face? In a way, Annoying Girl is us, minus the insecurity. She's so fine with herself you want to slap her. But you also secretly wish you could be that obnoxious without any concern for what other people might think.

That massive chunk of text up there, is a quote from Gossip Girl: You're the One That I Want. I was reading the book (awesome btw) when I came across that section up there and I thought how true it was! I mean, this "Annoying Girl" really does sound super annoying. And we all love to hate her. This girl, well, I think that's it's pretty true when Cecily von Ziegesar says that "...whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us." As I read that part, my immediate response was, "What the heck. No way am I at all like that girl," But then I really thought about it (I mean, really thought about it) and realized that I do have a trace of her in me! The second paragraph of the quote...is true xD for me, anyway. Like, when your teacher asks a question in class, and even though you know the answer perfectly, you don't put your hand up because you don't want to look too smarty-pants and nerdy.

There's a girl in my homeroom who is totally the Annoying Girl. She really does think that all the boys are in love with her because she thinks she's stunning and she always waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question/for a volunteer. However, she plasters herself in make-up and I can always see gross blusher and foundation that doesn't match her skintone so she always looks orange. So...if she wears this much makeup then...she can't be totally secure about her looks, can she? If she thinks that she's so gorgeous, then she should just go au naturale. So she's just a LOT like the Annoying Girl, and not exactly like her, after all. Ah. I'm deep. LOL xD