All my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace

I haven't been feeling like myself recently. Is it bad that all i need is him? And by him, I mean Nick. Its really bad because I actually feel like shit and depressed because I feel so lost. I seriously don't know what to do. I think I should tell him how I feel. If he's my friend...he deserves the right to know. I'm so scared that I'm falling in love with him. I'm not kidding. This is serious. And I'm really afraid that our friendship will be ruined because he doesn't feel the same way. I only wish I could stop myself from falling so hard.

I don't know how he feels towards me because we never have massive heart to hearts about feelings. Never. Even though he's my best guy friend. I don't know why but I think we both feel this big awkwardness hanging in the air whenever we mention 'feelings'. He's really hard to read sometimes. I heard a rumour a while back that he liked me and Rina told me she overheard that one of his friends saying, 'you like her, don't you?' and referring to me, but idk. It could be and it might not be.

I know that life isn't supposed to be easy but I really wish that it was sometimes.