Just gonna stand there and hear me cry

EEEK! I'm sorry!! I forgot to wish you all a Happy Christmas! I got busy and then my mom and dad had loads of people over and it was all so crazy (but fun at the same time). I had a great Christmas. Did you?

I went shopping earlier today - shopping for last minute essentials for this party at this girl who's in my Chem class. The party's at 9pm.. there's still a while yet but I'm going to get ready soon so this will be very short.

I hope you've all had a KICK-ASS 2010 and I wish you all the best for the New Year!!! :)

Live like there's no tomorrow

Wouldn't it be really weird if you knew exactly what was going to happen in your life? You'd know whether or not you'd get to live out your dream. You'd know how many children you'd have. You'd know exactly when and where you'd meet the love of your life. "The One". That would be pretty cool. But then again, you'd know when you'd die. That's horrible. I don't want to know. It's weird that every year, you're passing your deathday but you don't know. Unless you choose it for yourself.

You know how everyone always says that honesty is the best policy and that a good relationship is an honest one? Like, with no secrets? That's great, but where's the mystery? Where's the element of surprise? You have to admit that it's exciting when your boyfriend comes back after being away for a week and you have no idea what he's been doing. Or maybe I'm just twisted that way. If there were no secrets in a relationship, wouldn't it be a little...boring?

But I'm not a fan of lying, don't get me wrong, I'm all up for telling the truth. However sometimes a little white lie is necessary to dig yourself out of unintentional and metaphorical holes.

I haven't blogged for a while now and I have a lot to say. That's why, if you're reading this (if you are then hooray - pat yourself on the back!) you might think that I'm being a bit scatty and the topic focus keeps changing.

I'm really glad that it's almost Christmas because that means Christmas break - yay! That means no school - double yay! I swear, teachers have nothing better else to do than to load mountains of assignments and schoolwork onto the shoulders of their students. The question is WHY?! Doesn't more assignments mean more marking for them? That equals more work and more time taken out of their free time. I should take up this argument with my History teacher. She's a massive fan of assignments. Her motto = all work and no play makes you a better person everyday! Yeah, I know, that doesn't makesense at all - haha! I just made it up on the spot and I'm no good at this poetry business.

I can feel a headache coming along. Great. I'm off now, but I'll write a little something here on the 25th. Just to wish everyone a Merry Christmas :)

I think I'll be brave, starting with you

Thanksgiving was great!...and bad at the same time because...

IT WAS AWESOME because I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows on Sunday and I think it was totally freaking awesome....!! Though, I know quite a few people who said that it was poor...and that they were expecting it to be way better. They said that the trailer was awesome but the actual movie was *bleep*. HOW DARE THEY?! I think it was good :)

IT WAS BAD because I was ill :( Yes. And even worse, I was ill on a day when there was no school and wait, it gets better! The next day (when we had school), I was better so I had to go to school. Eurgh. xD

I went shopping today. Bought a cute skirt and a pretty jacket. My mom gave me like, $150 to buy a new coat and I got this greyish-greenish coat from H&M, which is kind of cool military-chic, but now I want a classic kind of coat. One in maybe a pretty navy-blue/midnight blue shade? A nice dark blue color. Not the high-school dark blue color. Ew.

Lucky it's almost Christmas. Christmas = presents! Everybody loves getting presents :)

Pumpkins and broomsticks

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY! I can't write here for long because I'm going to a Halloween party tonight and I gotta get my hair done ;) so this is going to be a relatively short post.

I just wanted to wish you all a happy HAPPY Halloween: and to have fun trick o' treating for candy, or raving the night away in fancy dress at some cool underground club. Or if parties aren't your scene, get some friends over and stay up watching horror flicks all night.

Now I really got to go. Hairdresser's waiting! I know that everyone's gonna get totally wasted tonight and school is going to be tough tomorrow, but whatever. We're still gonna have fun! Yeah!

I could really use a wish right now

I went shopping today! After school, of course. Like I would skip class...LOL. Okay *changes subject*

So I bought some skirts, a really cute jacket from Topshop and OH MY GOSH, an amazing new coat from H&M. I love it! And the best part is that it only coat like $56...WHAT A BARGAIN! I mean, it's awesome when you buy expensive stuff and wear it, knowing that it's beautiful AND expensive. It makes you feel...kind of proud. Especially when people say, "Oh my gosh, your (item of clothing) is so gorgeous! Where did you get it from?" and you're like "Marc Jacobs" and *smug smile* LOL. But it feels nicer when you buy cheap stuff that looks gorgeous. Plus, it doesn't hurt your wallet either :)

Your love is off the chain

I haven't updated this thing in a while! Sorry for neglecting you for so long! Jeez, school is so mean.

I don't know what to write about today. Except that...I can't wait for winter xD I mean, proper winter. Authentic New Yorkian winter, with snow 4 ft deep and children building snowmen and pelting snowballs at each other. And let's not forget the shopping. Yay! Highlight of the season :) Okay I admit. I'm a bit of a shopaholic. But hey! I'm a girl! It's like, in female genes. Just like how all - or most - boys love football and soccer and shooting hoops and other sports.

I'm still stuck for words for what to do about Nick.. he's so - complicated and difficult and complex. He's a tough nut to crack (Lol). But seriously though. He's so SO ignorant and insensitive and just when I start to think about giving up on him (but not without smacking him first), he turns incredibly sweet and then it makes me think "oh how amazing is he?". Until I remember how insensitive he was only a few moments earlier. I FEEL LIKE TEARING MY HAIR OUT.

Gosh I'm incredibly pathetic xDD. Rina told me - a few days ago - that she heard one of Nick's friends say "OH MY GOD, you like TIFFANY DON'T YOU?!" to Nick...Now I'm trying not to get my hopes up because I hate it when they get too high, only to come crashing back down again. But I can't help crossing my fingers and my toes though. Lol!

Did you forget?

Three things have happened to me recently. I feel like I should vent out my feelings and emotions now because it's not "emotionally healthy" to bottle up your feelings.

I think I have finally managed to build a bridge and get over Jamie. It's about time. That's the only good news so far.

I am afraid that I am losing contact with one of my friends. She's one of closest friends, I've known her as long as I've known Katy - so we've been friends since like, 6th grade or something. Ever since the start of this year, ever since the start of 11th grade, Nareena seems...different. She seems like she wants to be part of the "popular" crowd. She never has time for the rest of us anymore. And even when she does, she still doesn't act like herself. Nareena's constantly acting like someone's about to take her photo and put it in a tabloid or something. It's like, god, you don't have to be on show all the time.

I'm not sure if I want to make an effort to talk to her now. The rest of our friends, they're still making an attempt, but I feel some "frostiness" radiating from Nareena now. Like, there's a giant ice wall between her and us. I really don't know how to explain it. I should really see how it goes now. But at the moment, I feel like I don't want to be friends with her anymore, if she's going to change like that.

Changing...for the better? or for the worse?

I'm really so very hopeless. I'm such an hopeless case. I'm so much of a hopeless case that, I think I'm falling for one of my friends. No. No. It's a guy friend. LOL. xD I think he might be one of the reasons that I'm over Jamie. It's better...and worse in a way.

Why do boys always act different when they're with their friends? Is it because they want to seem "cool"? It's so not cool. Someone should tell them that. I will. He...Nick...I love it when his friends arent around because he's so much better to be with when they're not there. It's not like he's terribly when he's with them, it's just that... Nick always acts totally childish and immature with them. I want to tell him that I like him, but I'm afraid that it'll ruin our friendship.

He's in my homeroom. We also have Chemistry together. So I pretty much see him every single day. Today, he and his friend walked in late to class. I won't lie. My heart actually jumped when I saw him walk into the classroom. But I didn't look at him because I was too busy filing my nails. Not that I wasn't watching him from the corner of my eye. Then I heard Nick approach my table but his friend wanted to sit on some table on the other side of the room because one of their other friends was sitting there. And then they had a small argument over where to sit. Because I was totally listening whilst filing my nails. Nick was like, "No, let's just sit here," (in my head, I was like YES, PLEASE SIT HERE) and his friend was all, "No we're going over there". And then eventually they sat on the other side of the classroom. So I was totally cursing Alex in my head the whole lesson.

oh my. I am so...wicked xD I wish that Alex would suddenly fall ill and be off for the next couple of weeks.

And all I can say -

Annoying Girl - you know who I mean. The one who thinks she's gorgeous and smart and every boy is in love with her. She shouts, "Me, me, me!" and waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question. She's the most self-righteous person in the room, but she's insecure about appearing too self-righteous, so she giggles a lot and acts stupid to hide her supposed genius. And she's the loudest, messiesr drunk you've ever seen. Without her friends, she'd pass out in a puddle of sick on the bathroom floor or wind up going home with some sleazy older guy. But her friends always seem to take pity on her, and the next day she's bouncier thanever, smiling like nothing happened.

The thing about Annoying Girl is, whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us. That's why we love to hate her so much. She's our worst nightmare. I mean, how many times have you wanted to wave your hand in the air when you knew the answer, only stopping yourself because you didn't want to look like an idiot? And how many times have you wanted to just sit down in a boy's lap and start kissing him but didn't for fear he's laugh in your face? In a way, Annoying Girl is us, minus the insecurity. She's so fine with herself you want to slap her. But you also secretly wish you could be that obnoxious without any concern for what other people might think.

That massive chunk of text up there, is a quote from Gossip Girl: You're the One That I Want. I was reading the book (awesome btw) when I came across that section up there and I thought how true it was! I mean, this "Annoying Girl" really does sound super annoying. And we all love to hate her. This girl, well, I think that's it's pretty true when Cecily von Ziegesar says that "...whether we like it or not, we all have a little bit of her in us." As I read that part, my immediate response was, "What the heck. No way am I at all like that girl," But then I really thought about it (I mean, really thought about it) and realized that I do have a trace of her in me! The second paragraph of the quote...is true xD for me, anyway. Like, when your teacher asks a question in class, and even though you know the answer perfectly, you don't put your hand up because you don't want to look too smarty-pants and nerdy.

There's a girl in my homeroom who is totally the Annoying Girl. She really does think that all the boys are in love with her because she thinks she's stunning and she always waves her hand in the air whenever the teacher asks a question/for a volunteer. However, she plasters herself in make-up and I can always see gross blusher and foundation that doesn't match her skintone so she always looks orange. So...if she wears this much makeup then...she can't be totally secure about her looks, can she? If she thinks that she's so gorgeous, then she should just go au naturale. So she's just a LOT like the Annoying Girl, and not exactly like her, after all. Ah. I'm deep. LOL xD

Oh I'm a gypsy. Are you coming with me?

SO SO SO! I went to Spain and now I'm back.

It was really hot in Spain. Not as hot as China, of course (ha!), but it was like, over 80 degrees out. (In China, I'm pretty sure that it was over 100). And OMG OMG OMGGG! Can I just say now that Spanish guys are really hot!! haha xD No, I'm deadly serious! Practically every single male that I saw (between the ages of 15 and 25) were quite.. you know, pretty. ;)

My brother and my dad made us all visit the soccer stadium or something in Barcelona. Largest in Europe?? And then brother got a shirt from a stall outside because we were originally going to buy him a FC-Barcelona soccer shirt but then we saw the prices... it was like $200 *O* NO WAY. For a Topshop item, yes, but for something on soccer? no way hose. LOOL xD I'm kidding haha. But it's still expensive. My brother got a David Villa shirt. What number again? 10 or 7? All I can remember is that the guy who was behind the stall was really cute. He looked like Enrique Iglesias ;) and jesus, he had nice eyes ^_^"

It was really nice in Spain, except that most of the people couldn't speak English much and even if they could, it was with a heavy accent or something, so kind of hard to communicate. Had to resort to hand gestures and eye movements. I suppose it's understandable, because it IS a different country so they have a different language. They maybe learn English at school, just like I learn French at school. But I suck at French haha!

I'm falling hard for you

MY NEEDS ~ I HAVE GIRLY NEEDS ^_^"

I really really really REALLY want this coat:

It costs like $200 though! URGHHHHH.... but it's worth it, right? It's a good investment, because I'll be wearing it all winter and fall and spring...



GOTTA PERSUADE MY MOTHER.

Like fire and rain

HAHA ~ so I told my friends about my new haircut and naturally they all wanted to see and were like, OMG WHAT'S IT LIKE. So then I sent them a couple of photos (because I'm vain and cute and all that [haha]).

Nick said that I looked hot. LOL. I was like, whaaat? and then he shrugged and went, "All Chinese girls are hot." By Chinese, I think he meant oriental, but yeah, same diff. Aw! It's nice to have guy friends who make you feel better by complimenting you ^-^. You know how we girls are insecure and paranoid about our looks? Like, "Does this skirt make my butt look big?" and "Is my hair too flat?".

Speaking of skirts, I recently bought this really cute skirt at H&M. It's black and just longer than mid-thigh, and it's got gold buttons down the front. It's kind of high-waisted, I guess. I'll show you guys a photo later.

EDIT: OKAY IT'S LATER~


This isn't me wearing it by the way! It's some other girl that I don't know~ I was searching the Internet for a picture of just the skirt but couldn't find any, so...

URGH. HOW EARLY! See y'all later ;D

But you're the harmony to every song I sing

I'll be needing to show you all my photos from China sometime soon. It's almost been a month since we first set off!! But you know how lazy I am xD

Nothing happened with Jamie.. he's just so confusing, maybe I just let go, once and for all. It's hard to be with someone who can't seem to be able to make up their mind!! Sometimes I just want to smack him on the head and say "What do you want?". Not that I can reach that high, anyway.

Katy told me that she saw him looking at me quite a few times. BUT I WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION! Urgh, I wish that he would look at me when I'm looking at him, and I would look at him when he's looking at me!! What a crazy world, huh?

Oh and there's this other girl who likes him as well. It seems like a lot of girls have their eye on him. WTF. But the biggest WTF is that this girl is only in eight grade. How does she know him?! LOL, but the most important question is... WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS? Lol, I'm sucha bitch, aren't I? A possessive one, at that xD I'm sorry! I just need to vent. and let it all out. whoosh. But-but-but-!! I can't believe that this little middle-schooler thinks that she can have my Jamie... ah. What am I taking about? She doesn't have him xD. I don't think he likes her, he's just too nice to show it.

ARGH! Haha xD I'm so crazy!! ^-^" Sorry ~ gomen ne for being such a crazy and possessive beeetch xD

Hm. I wonder what Jamie would have done if I just grabbed him and kissed him. Haha, an even better thought... I wonder how the eight-grader would react if I just suddenly made out with him right in front of her. I am so evil! I have to learn to be nicer xD. It would break her heart, probably. No. She's too young to know what love is, and to have her heart properly broken. I mean, properly. Even I don't know. xD Not that I'm ancient or anything. I'm only, what? 3 years older. Jamie's 3 years older than her... she's too young for him... MEH. xDD

Love and kisses,
XXXXXX

LATEST CHOP!

Soooo.... I haven't updated my blog lately. I guess I just kind of forgot about it and everytime I remembered, I was too lazy to sign in and type a bunch of nonsense and babble xDD

BUT! I've had my hair cut *O*
It was quite long before, and then I had it cut to just past my shoulders before I went to China and now....

(My eyes look weird here :3)

It's.... it feels sooo different! It feels as though my hair is tied back, but it's not (obviously haha. It's too short to be tied back now)

It was like this before:

A great thing about having short hair is that it doesn't take long to wash and blowdry. But a bad thing would be that you get flyaway hairs. I guess hair is "heavy" when it's long so my hair was quite obedient and stayed down, but now.. sometimes, I get the rebels on my head that just decide to stand up. xDD

Down days

you know those days when you feel absolutely and so stubbornly down? well i am having one of those days. *sigh* Let's start with the giant killer headache i have. BIGGEST HEADACHE KNOWN TO MAN. No kidding. So i'm listening to calming soothing songs. Unfortunately most of the lovely slow headache-soothing songs are about love which remind me of Jamie. By the way he's got a new girl now. He says that we'll always be friends but it is so hard to be his friend. Urgh god my head throbs. Luckily i am jetting off to China in just over a week's time. Unluckily however, Jamie is going too... But! His girlfriend isnt going... *cackles* no lol im not that kind of girl. Or am i? No i am most definitely NOT. Cmon and resist you weakling! He's just a stupid boy. OMG I AM GOING NUTS. Well this is going to be an...ahem interesting vacation (:

MY STAR

I read somewhere that the actor Jeremy Sumpter is 6ft 2, you know, because I'm a stalker fan-girl and all LOL. That's pretty tall. Nearly 190cm? Hm. Jamie is 6ft 2 as well. HAHA xD they both have blond hair, blue eyes. PLUS. I saw this video on Youtube, where Jeremy was being interviewed about something (can't remember, I was too busy being mesmerized by his cuteness) and I suddenly noticed that his voice sounds reeally similar to Jamie's. LOLOLOL I know~ I'm just being paranoid and weird. Just, you know, both their names begin with J.

I wish I was taller. If I was taller, like 2, maybe 3 inches taller, I would look really skinny. I aspire to be approximately 5ft 5 inches when I'm older. Haha. I'm so short, god-dammit. But short is cute, right?!

Hm. I don't want to be too tall though, if you get my drift xD. It would be nice to be supermodel-tall (models are always sexy-looking *jealous jealous*), I suppose, but I don't want to be taller than all the boys I know. Then again, I don't hold attractions for really short boys. I think they're cute though!

I think I notice blond boys the most. I'm not sure why. I think it's because I, in my mind, usually associate pixies, elves and fairies, etc, to have blond hair. Like, cheeky and mischievous! Yeah. Jamie has blond hair *sighs dreamily*. Awww @ when he blushes!! It's soooo adorable and sweet when he's embarrassed about something and goes red. It's like he's a little boy xD.

I AM SO OBSESSED. Slap me.

NEVERLAND!

Okay, so I went to my friend's house like, a couple of days ago, and we just hung out like girls do. Did our nails, our eyebrows and whatnot. Then we watched a movie and got a takeout.

OMG. We watched Peter Pan, the 2003 version, starring Jeremy Sumpter, Jason Isaacs and Rachel Hurd-wood. I know, i know what you're thinking, KIDS MOVIE, right? Yeah, that's what I thought, and didn't really watch it. I just fidgeted and yawned for the first half, and then I started to really get into it. I totally regret the fact that I messed about for the first half hour of the film. I also missed bits of the end and the middle. So I basically only watched the parts in between. DAMN! So I've got my dad to order the film online. Amazon.com

EEEEP. Jeremy Sumpter is soooooo adorable! His smile... is like.. so charming! and cheeky. I just want to pinch his cute little cheeks xD Apparently he's 21 years old now, so... I won't do that xD. Anyways, he looks like a really pretty girl. It's a good thing because the really hot guys usually look like really pretty girls. In my opinion. LOL. I totally sound like a lesbian now xD. Haha

*excited excited* I can't wait 'til the movie arrives, so I can watch it properly! Actually daddy hasn't ordered it yet. he says "next week". So... yay! *excited excited*

Sweetie

Ohh... I haven't wrote in my dear sweet blog for almost a month! I'm sorry baby hugs* lol :) I also forgot to wite here on my birthday to update you all on my wonderful day! ^^ Oh well.

I did have a great day, thank you for asking ;) It was awesome because everyone treated me like a princess ;D hehe! Ahh.. it's good being a V.I.P lol!
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I didn't get most of things that I put on my wishlist, but I'll admit... I was being a bit of a far-fetched air-head xDD LOL! I'll also add that even though I was kind of disappointed, I was still really pleased with all my sweet 16 gifts, because... well! I don't want to an ungrateful little rich-bitch or something like that haha :)

But I love being spoiled though. I won't deny. Who doesn't?!
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URGH sjdnsjkhikfh!! My computer is actually taking the piss. I'm sorry for my language but it's true! It's so freaking slow. *kicks*

CHA CHA CHA CHAAA

Goodness me, I have a busy week coming up! Tomorrow is my birthday *SQUEEE!* and I'll be 16 *SWEET 16!* I'm as excited as a 5-year old (MATURENESS). I've been hinting heavily to my friends and parents and other relatives about stuff that I want. Shall we have a re-cap?

1. an Apple iPad ('tis SO AMAZING)

The iPad is a tablet computer designed and marketed by Apple for Internet browsing, media consumption, gaming and light content creation...it established a new class of devices between smartphones and laptops

LAPTOPS ARE SOOO LAST YEAR...!!

2. A Blackberry

...mobile e-mail and smartphone device

3. A CAR (need I say how AWESOME it would be to own my very own, very FIRST car?!?)

I don't really mind what kind, but I like convertibles *hint hint* and maybe something along the lines of *cough*BMW-JAGUAR-MERCEDES*cough* (know what I mean?) but no pressure xD
Oh - and red is a nice color - sexy (scarlet? ruby? blood-red??)
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4. A high-waisted skirt (preferably from Topshop, H&M, etc..)

..sooo cute! Also, I'm toying with the preppy college-girl look at the moment ;D

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5. The entire collection of Richard Montanari books
I don't usually read (LOL - sorry. I'm always waaaay too busy) but I got hooked onto Montanari's books when I first read Play Dead (picked up the wrong book in the library). And may I just say that it WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING?! The way Montarai writes is just so..awesome..keeps you hooked onto every word..it's suspenseful and a "soul-chilling thriller".

Just. Love. It
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This morning, I got a package, one that I had to sign. As soon as I saw the postage stamp - it's from my grandparents who live in Osaka. The package is kind of bigish, about 12 inches by maybe 14 inches? 15inches? and soft. It's squishy, which can only mean one thing..CLOTHES! YES. I SURE DO LOVE CLOTHES. Especially from Japan. It means that it's unlikely that I'll see someone else wearing the same outfit xD lol. Sorry, i'm shallow in that sense :P

Then another package from my aunts (Dad's sisters) who live in Japan as well - Tokyo. It's a box. I shook it and there was this hollow clunking sort of noise. I hope it's shoes. It sure does sound like shoes! :D
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Geez, I'm excited! ^^ It's unlikely that I'll get the car, because I don't see any car insurance papers anywhere. Nor do I see the car itself. But no matter! *fingers crossed* OOOOOH! I CAN'T WAIT! Plus - there's always the party :)

Hmm.. which reminds me. I still got to plan it. I can't have it this weekend (obvs - it's waaay too short a notice) or the next because I've still got my summer exams. So most likely, around the 20th June. *thinks* Yeah.

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I've run out of my favorite Sally Hansen Regular Nail Polish Remover (for all nail types, with Vitamin E and Apricot Extract). My aunt (Mom's sister. I sure do have a lot of aunts. I actually have NO uncles that are blood-related to me. Just the ones that are married to my aunts) who lives somewhere in England introduced me to Sally Hansen products when she came over for Christmas a few years back. This polis remover is so DARN GOOD! It removes all traces of varnish ;D
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I just love!

Fall down 7 times, get up 8...

An old proverb apparently. That's what my daddy said to me last night when I was stressing about my hair, my exams, my weird relationship with Nick.. well. Just life in general. He said, "Fall down seven times, get up eight", and I just looked at him like what-the-hell-are-you-talking-about and you-are so not helping-right-now. Because he really wasn't, even though I know that he was trying to be. Jeez. Dads just don't get it!

I really do have a weird relationship with Nick..I mean, he's one of my closest best guy friends, and I tell him practically everything but recently things have been a bit weird and we haven't talked about stuff that we normally talk about. I don't know what's going on.

And exams are really getting to me now. Even though my first exam was last Tuesday (World Religion Section A) and my second was on Friday (Advanced Biology). I know what you're all thinking - jeez girl, get a grip on yourself. It's been less than a week and you've only had two exams - that's nothing! Wait til you get out into the real world. It's true, I know, but I'm weak, helpless and totally spineless. (really!) My third exam is World Religion Section B, which is tomorrow, but I had a huge cram-in revision session last night, and I feel obese and really overweight because I was on the couch, reading through my notes, snacking on curly fries for about 5 hours. (not really 5, more like 2, but you get the gist). AHHHHH

There's something weird going on with my hair as well. My bangs grows way too fast and always uneven even though I get it cut perfectly straight like, every weekend. (see = I'm a control-freak). I'm thinking of dyeing my hair. I don't know what color though. Natsuyaki Miyabi color is a little too light for me, I'm not taking huge steps into the World of Hairdye just yet. But maybe dark brown, like...Tanaka Reina's in Nanchatte Renai? Reina was definitely wearing a wig because her hair is a much lighter auburn/brown color (unless they dyed it dark, then back to normal. If they did that, then I really feel for Tanaka. Dyeing ruins your hair SO MUCH!). Let's see...

(will find a pic and post later)

Pretty, right? But I'm worried that I'd have to bleach my hair before getting it dyed. Even though it's a dark color that I want, because my hair is practically black (a really dark brown cos apparently black isn't a real hair color [wtf?!]).

Bomb in Times Square

Yesterday. OMG...Mom told me. And its in the news...the police found an improv bomb in a car on 45th Street and Seventh Avenue. Times Spuare was evacuated...it is like, one of the busiest places in NY...i guess that's why the Pakistani Talibans chose it. People have been saying that this is a potential terrorist attack. I'm actually a little freaked now. Remembering the attack on the World Trade Center.. Twin Towers? 9/11? :S Why would they do something so cruel? Dont they know how much suffering would've happened?There were tourists too! Innocent kids. Many people. UNBELIEVABLE. I don't want the whole of New York to blow..! But that is just what they want.

Echo...in my mind

I'm worried that i will never get over Jamie. It is like he has uncovered something that no other guy has ever found before. Something about him is too...too hooking. I'm not making sense here but now im totally getting depressed. And for a dumb cause too. -Sigh-

It comes naturally...

...bay-bay-baby

I really love that song, Naturally, by Selena Gomez & The Scene.

I have to buy their album, Kiss and Tell.

Doesn't Selena look so damn gorgeous? She is SO pretty and cute. I admire her ^.^

and OMG I WANT THOSE DRESSES. all of them. and that gold bead necklace. It looks really fiddly and reminds me of a Christmas tree (in a good way though). When she wears the pink dress, she looks good - that color really suits her ;D

"You are the thunder and I am the lightning..." and I love the way you know who you are and to me, it's exciting

Everything comes naturally...it comes naturally when you're with me, baby...

What I'm loving atm -

LOOK AT THIS MINNA

I'm getting really into K-pop.
I HEART:

- DBSK (forever Yunho)
- SNSD (heart heart)
- KARA (recently I've become hooked to "Wanna" and "Honey"

I love that beat in Honey. Now it is just me, or do at least 2 of the girls look A LOT like Sohee from The Wonder Girls?? xD

HONEY HONEY HONEY

The first song that I heard from KARA. It's super catchy ;D Like Honey, I'm also lovin' that beat and the girls are so pretty. Plus, I'm digging their clothes :P They also wear a lot of liner, just like me. Ha xD

GRRR. why are they all so gorgeous???

let's get CRAZY

Hey! Thank you to ALL my lovely subscribers...I've finally reached 100! ;D I don't know when... because I've not signed in, and I haven't been on for like, a week now ^^ but thanks! minna :)

And today, I was cutting my bangs and a hair got into my eye. So now my eye is red D: Not only am I slowly going crazy (because I haven't seen the lovely Tom for at LEAST 2 weeks) but I'm also bad-tempered in pain from my eye.

Anyways, gotta go now. I'll write some more stuff when I get home...I'm writing this on my phone (which is crap) at school (cause I'm a rebel) AND it's taking too long to write all of this. Plus, Miss Haughton is totally looking and is probably going to give me detention and confiscate my phone. Not that I care.

Time to update!

I think it's time for a change. CHANGE OF PHOTOS!

I've taken some new ones and so will update my crappy profile photo soon. Next week ;D

GREAT DAY

My eyeliner was absolutely perfect today. It was so even, not too thin - not too thick, and the perfect shape. I know i sound big-headed and conceited but I'm not even kidding. I never kid about eyeliner!

sweet GRRR!

oh my GOOOOSH! I'm going out of my mind here with boredom. I can't just sit here at my computer and not record D:

Oh wait - I don't have a microphone. doh

I've been watching movie trailers and stuff on Youtube instead. Look:


Starstruck (2010): An Original Disney Movie

I watched it when it came out and I decided to watch it again because I'm really bored to tears here. Personally, I think that this is a good movie. It's cute, but totally no way realistic. Jessica (Danielle Campbell) - she's funny. I like her character. She's sarcastic and cynical but she's also not afraid to say what she thinks. She won't do something just because other people are. Peer pressure. I think that's a good quality. I wish I was strong like that. But I'm totally weak.

ANNOUNCEMENT TO ALL

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT. If you haven't already read it on my Youtube page; then please read it here. RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.

I did something bad so I've been grounded. My mom has decided to confiscate my mic from me as a punishment and as part of my grounding. I'm only allowed it back on the 20th June.

20TH JUNE!! DX

So that means.... NO RECORDING. NO NEW DUBS. NO LINES. NO NOTHING. Well, I guess that it is all my fault. I shouldn't have done what I did. To all my projects~ I am REAAAALLY SORRY. I have been sending out PMs to all of you guys, telling you this and that I'm going on a hiatus until the end of June. Of course, I'm coming back. You can't get rid of me that easily (mwahahahaha LOL).

Do you want to know what I did? I'm going to tell you anyway.

Well, all I did was skip my Chem lab class and then sneak out to meet a...friend. Then I got caught. For both. They didn't even happen at the same time. I mean~ I skipped the class in the daytime when I was sat school and then in the evening, I snuck out. I guess the sneaking out made everything worse. I should have just stuck with the skipping.

I asked my mom a couple of nights before if I could go out with this guy, Derek, and she said no because she knew him and she thought that he was a bad influence. (Like I care what she thinks. I was gonna go out with him anyway, whatever she said). I guess Mom read my mind or something because she said, "If you dare to go out with him anyway, Miyako, you'll be in serious trouble."

But i did~ and she must have expected me to because I got caught. Yeah. How lame. Derek may never ask me out again. And then the next day, I discovered that I had a detention from skipping Chem class and then only a few days ago~ Mom found out and yeah. She grounded me.

So no microphone until June. D:

But regardless of the consequences, whenever Mom goes out, I'm going to sneak my mic out of wherever my mom hid it and record as many lines as possible before she gets back. I wonder where she hid it. Probably on the top shelf of her wardrobe. Yeah.

Soku Dakishi-METE

i really like that C-ute song - Soku Dakisimete. And isn't Megumi's voice soo amazing? Plus, she is realy pretty! Oh~ and the beat makes me think of basketball xD OR MAYBE it is just the PV. Btw im blogging on my phone so sometimes my spelling is kind of bad. Tis lunch break! Then i gotta go back to SCHOOL..YUCK YUCK YUK. Yay for Starbucks ^^ mmm...MOCHA is niiice ;D

Your world~ is my world

Oh YES. I think I am getting over Jamie. At LONG LAST.

Tom's all I can think about. When I close my eyes~ I can see his adorable face. Wow~ he is amazingly cute *_*

Well. It was my mom's birthday like, 2-3 weeks ago and only recently have I got her a birthday present (whoops!) She really liked it ^^. Which I'm pleased about. It's this bag~ cos she's always saying how she never has enough bags and how they're never big enough, so I went out and got her a new bag. It's quite nice. Her new bag, I mean. It's light brown, leather with a cute little front pocket that has a clasp on it. AND like, 3 pockets inside (cos moms love extra baggage space)

I'll totally borrow it one day.

But the worst part was when I looked at the name of the bag (in shops, items always have like, a name to them. Like~ when u buy a baby doll top, its called "BABY DOLL SHORT POLKA" or something like that. You know?). The bag was called JAMIE.

Are you kidding me?

chu-chu-chu~

Good day today. except that Veronica and Nadine decided to take a day off from school so it was just me, Rina and Katy hanging around. Anyways i had my hair curly today and i kind of looked like Aika Mitsui xD in Shouganai Yume Oibito =) well better obv. KIDDING ;D i think that she's so pretty and cute. AND her smile is adorable! Loads of people seem to hate her ~ why? Okay so her singing isn't as good as...say Ai or Risa but Aika has just the same amount of cutey personality. Which is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING to look for in a person

SMILES all around

Oh wooow! i went on a trip to see some great-aunt who lives in Chicago. My parents made me. They said it was because there was a niece who lived there and when she was younger, she was an amazing cheerleader. She's like 30 something now. Anyway i got bored just hanging around with just adults all day, Great-Aunt Hatsuyo is a really fussy old lady but Aunty Miki was nice, so i went and sat out on the porch.

Then i saw a guy. Turns out he lives next door. He smiled at me and at first i thought he was hideous and soo not my type but then he started to talk to me and i realized that he had really pretty eyes. Shiny, twinkly, sooo pretty. Blue. He's called Tom. He has blond hair' flawless skin and has the most adorable nose ever. I couldnt resist so i poked it. (ha! and he just looked at me, but didn't say anything. I wonder what he thought??)

Tom isnt very tall, only a couple of inches more than me, but he's really funny. I think he's hilarious. He swears a lot though! I wont tell Mom and Dad that. :D

However he is a ninth grader, one below me. Hmm... But he is so cute and nice plus he makes me laugh. Oh, and we ate ice cream out in the glorious sun and he shared his Pringles with me. Then he took his top off for a bit cos it got too hot and i was like *O* WOO! :D Actually it wasn't all that~ nothing there really. Just toned. Hairless.

i kind of really want to see him again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIKO~!

Today, my dear friends, is Aiko (AikoAki)'s birthday! On this day, she turns 14 ^^so I wish her a very happy birthday and hope that she has a lovely day ♥

and don't forget to have a party ^^. Parties are the best part of birthdays. Oh~ and getting presents is great as well! ;D

"Amaenbo"

OPV~ foolishfish007

Aiko-cha - I know you love Reina Tanaka so I found you this lovely OPV by one of the greatest OPV makers of our generation xD - foolishfish007. Please support his work ♥

and this song is originally by Otsuka Ai (you know I love Otsuka). It reminds me a lot of you actually, Aiko. I mean~ I chose Kingyo Hanabi for Mitsu because it's so calm, soft and sweet just like Mitsu but for you, Amaenbo because of the rock n' roll guitars xDD. Calm in the beginning and then crazy, wild and full of energy ♥

I don't know how else to explain my choice of songs but I usually choose birthdays and other special event songs according to the person/event that I'm singing for ^^. Hehe ;D

Anyways~ let's cut this post short. Have a wonderful day Ai-kitty! Love you! ♥

Miya xxx

o_O

I am so weird. I can't believe that I actually wrote all that below. Maybe I should just go back to sleep again. Yeah. Night everybody! (even though its like 9am now~ but wth, thats early.)

Huh

Oh, and I had a dream that I auditioned for a project with 12 generations. It was really weird. Then I woke up and fell asleep again. I had that dream where u dream that you're falling, and of course I woke up AGAIN. Shaking. Dang it, I am such a wimp. And then... I had a THIRD dream about that stupid bastard-bitch Jamie. I hate seeing him in my dreams.... it means that my mind, soul and body longs for him.

*slams fist into table* ~ why can't I forget him?! I need someone else to obsess over. Please~ let there be a new student *closes eyes*

*opens eyes* maybe an exchange student from Korea?? *O* actually I don't mind. As long as its a guy. A nice one who can play guitar and has great hair. And eyes and skin and is tall. pleeeease dear Lord! *prays*

#@?%$!!

I am in a bad mood. Don't mess with me right now because I am in a really bad mood.

Greasy hair D: bad breath, bags under eyes, bed-head, thunder thighs and flabby... that's what I feel like. *Yawn* Nausea. I feel like I'm gonna throw.

So many things to do. Too many things to do. Supposed to be at school but I'm off-sick. I have a sore throat and a killer head-ache. Atm~ I'm painting because it calms me down. I'm listening to Lady Gaga and Jay Sean.

Later, I gotta record some lines.
- Suki Sugite Baka Mitai (duet)
- Massara Blue Jeans (HS)
- Dschinghas Khan (HS)
and a birthday song

Trying to find a song but my only options are buying it online. But I'm running out of online music download money D: I guess I'll just have to illegally download it then... no, I won't do that. I'm a good girl :D

Nevertheless, I still feel like shit today. I think I will go run on the treadmill after this or something. Dance. Yeah~

No!

A horrible thing happened today.

I got a spot. On my cheek. it's small but it's there. I haven't had a spot in like, ages! I'm not kidding - this is a massive shock, horrible shock for me D:

Hey!

I'm planning to upload dance videos xD I think I'm going to start with Bravo Bravo, because it's easy and then Shouganai Yume Oibito because I've already learnt it.

I've just watched some LunaCherry dance videos and I feel really inspired!! Her dancing is so great *O* when i try, DON'T compare haha.... because the contrast will be like woah. lol :P so just don't mentally compare, haii? lol ^_^

Outfits...hmm... i've got a dress similar to what the girls wore in Shouganai but it's a bit too off-white. And i can dress punk-rock-ish for Bravo Bravo, so that's fine.

Oh, and this is my latest cover. It's Momo no Hanabira, originally by Otsuka Ai. She's my favorite singer, you know.

I know the chorus is too quiet. I thought that it was fine when i was mixing but obviously not. Can't change it now D: i will probably re-do it some other time!

xxx

LOVE IS WONDERFUL~

It's almost Valentine's Day, people! Just TWO DAYS AWAAAAY ;) aren't you as excited as i am??? :D

actually i'm not that excited :P

but anyways:

I've uploaded a new cover: Sakura Kiss by Chieko Kawabe and it's the first song to my Valentine's Day special songs~called "LOVE IS WONDERFUL".



Hoping you guys like it~!

xxxxx

K-Pop

I LOVE LOVE LOVE K-Pop!!!

Please watch my debut K-pop song :)



Sorry my pronounciation isn't brilliant and I sound like i have a blocked nose D:
However, I think my pitching is okay though! The high note somewhere in the middle of the song is funny xD. Haha.

ALSO~ this song is by SNSD NOT Kara!! HAHA LMAO. I'm SOOOO dumb. I've been thinking all this time that Honey (Perfect For You) is a song by Kara. Kara have done a song called "Honey" but it is NOT the same song.

So stupid. Stupid stupid stupid. Baka Miya xD

I wanna cover a Chinese song next ;) I'm thinking of doing Practical Joke by Ariel Lin ^^ I love that song~! Its so sweet. But Chinese songs are the hardest songs to cover if you don't speak Chinese and the pronounciation is pretty difficult if you're used to English and Japanese. Because they say stuff like "Xiah" as "Chiah". Something like that. I'm not Chinese so correct me if I'm wrong ;)

Japanese is the EASIEST foreign language to sing. In my opinion ^^.

xxxxx

LOVE~ I WANT YOUR LOVE

OmGGGGG~ ahahaa I LOVE DBSK now!! Their music is so catchy. I love Wrong Number, Why Did I Fall in Love With You and Mirotic most. Mirotic is so...sexual-sounding, isn't it? Not that it's a bad thing. When it's sang by such DAMN! HOT guys, it's not so bad at all ^_^

*wiggles eyebrows* lol

They dance SO good as well :P no kidding, i'm always mesmerized by the dance steps. I would NEVER be able to dance like that. And i'm a dancer. Kind of. (well i cheerlead, so does that count as dancing??) lol.

So hot too :) Amazing abs... ahahahaaa... makes me feel faint *swoons*
lmao. i'm such a pervert



Hero (Jaejoong)'s the hottest though. (center)



I'd do ;)

LOL xD

I gotta remember

Coming up: Aiko (AikoAki)'s birthday

13th March~

DON'T forget, people!!

Happy Birthday Mitsu~!

WAAAA~! I've said this SO many times recently but... (haha, again!) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITSUKI!



(OPV: BigDnm01)

im not even kiding~ 18 is a WELL special age! It's one of the "big" ages, isn't it? Sweet 16, 18, 21 and 40 haha...

I've not even reached my sweet 16 yet~! can't wait though xD

Anyways~ I hope that Mitsu is having a great day :) partying and having fun~!! haha ^_^ happy 18th!!

Muchhh loves, Miya xxxxxxxxx

Nyannnn ;D

Just realized... I have posted a lot of posts today. Ha~!

Excited~!

OKAY EVERYBODY

I don't want you to forget so I'm reminding you all.
Tomorrow is a very special day!!

6th February 2010...
is the day that talented Youtube Japanese pop-singer and my cutie friend, Mitsuki (MitsukiUsagii) turns 18~!!! As you all should know, 18 is a reeeeally special age~! When you're 18, you can do almost ANYTHING!!

I'll do a special announcement tomorrow ^^. Along with her birthday song from me to Mitsuuu~~

Addicted!

My new favorite singer is Ai Otsuka. I LOVE LOVE LOVE her songs. Well, I kind of prefer the songs with the piano in them more but she is still a great singer.

Ai Otsuka (大塚 愛, Ōtsuka Ai) born September 9, 1982, is a Japanese pop singer-songwriter, composer, pianist and actress from Osaka, Osaka Prefecture, Japan. She is a popular artist on the avex trax label and is best-known for her 2003 hit Sakuranbo, which stayed in the Top 200 Oricon Weekly Singles Chart for 85 weeks.

(from Wikipedia)

She is so pretty and cute~!

Otsuka-san has been playing piano since the age of 4. That has totally encouraged me to continue with my piano playing. I play piano, y'know! Not very well though haha. I've only been playing since I was 10 years old, so only 5 years...

These are some of my favorite Otsuka Ai songs~

Kingyo Hanabi (Goldfish Fireworks)




Daisuki Da Yo (I Love You)



Momo no Hanabira (Peach Petal)



Amaenbo



Planetarium



There are more songs by Otsuka Ai that I like (such as Sakuranbo, PEACH!) but I can't be bothered to add anymore. Anyways this post is getting really long as well!!

OTSUKA AI ^^

Our Songs~ Buono

Nee~
I am loving this song!!!

My favorite part is the guitar intro. It reminds me of another song but I can't think what.



(photo I found on crunchyroll.com)

The girls look really nice in this song. I totally love their outfits as well. They are dressed like a mixture of cute and punk rock. Punk rock-y colors (black, red, white), military style jackets and bows for the cute bit. Momoko's shirt says "I sure am a bitch"?? I heard that it was something like that. I'm trying to pause the video whenever I can see her so I can read the shirt. I'm like obsessed with finding out what this infamous shirt actually says!! haha~!

I do like Airi's shirt. It's got a bow on it and its cute. I want it!! haha ^^

I totally love the way all 3 of them sound. The song has a nice beat. Dance looks good so far but I wanna see the dance shot before I make a judgement~

Also ;) I love Miyabi's hair there. She has extensions! It looks really pretty~ (she is pretty!) but I still think that her short hair suits and compliments her face shape more.

Forever and Always

"Once upon a time
I believe it was a Tuesday when you caught my eye
We caught onto something
I hold onto the night
You looked me in the eye and told me YOU LOVED ME."

That little extract is from the song "Forever and Always" by American country singer-songwriter and actress Taylor Swift. Wooooo~!

This song is one which I can really relate to :P except that for me~ it was a Friday instead of a Tuesday. Nothing happens on Tuesdays.

I really just adore Taylor Swift songs. She is so talented and pretty and beautiful!! Swift is like totally my idol.

The only thing is that she is like almost 6 ft tall which is unbelievably massive. I'm probably exaggerating but she is VERY tall. But nobody is perfect and I think that if you are as gorgeous as Taylor Swift then, you can get away with being so tall.

These Tears

Don't tell me that isn't true
Don't tell me what I feel for you
Isn't there
Don't tell me that

When I gave you my heart
I never wanted it back
You'll always have a piece
and I feel better somehow
Knowing that we'll always be connected

Did I ever say what I think?
and did I ever let you know?

These tears that fall
down my face
These tears that fall
from my eyes
And you'll never know
These tears that fall
leaving tracks
These tears that I feel that you should know
Fall from me
Because we'll never be.

"I love you, J.A. so much"

Loving you

Jeez. I am in such a bad mood! This is going to be the most negative post that you guys will ever read. Trust me.

Okay, well first... my calves hurt cos I've been over-cheerleading. Seriously, I'm not even kidding. I'm having to practise after-school and i feel like i'm working overtime D:

and I've been trying to download a music video for a groupdub and it just won't download. Talk about your annoyances. It stops at about 72% and I'm like sitting there, waiting and waiting...

GRR...


Plus, I'm feeling ever so stressed (!). Haha.

And this girl in this project I'm in, like, gives herself all the lines even though she couldn't sing on pitch to save her life. She's like all, "oh my voice is cute and hers is mature. let's keep it that way, yeah?". That is the stupidest pile of shit that I've ever heard. For GOD'S SAKE. Who does she think she is? Ayumi fucking Hamasaki??

I wonder who told her that she could sing. That is practically a sin. Encouraging people who have no chance. Poor girl! Makes me so angry though.

And yeah. I guess that I am a little bit (HA. a LITTLE bit? lol) jealous...! ;)